You Owe Me, My Love novel Chapter 210

Bai Rong peered at Gu Mingchen, trying to see through him, then she went back to her meal.

“What’s wrong?” Gu Mingchen was perplexed.

“The baby didn’t open its eyes at first, so I don’t know who it resembles, but it has fair skin, long eyelashes, small mouth, and double eyelids.” Bai Rong smiled at the mention of the child.

“How did it die?” Gu Mingchen stared at her.

“I don’t know. Some guys took him away right after I gave birth, and I don’t know who they were, nor did I manage to find anything. He has been gone for five years without any news. If he’s still alive, he would have been five years old now,” Bai Rong answered wistfully.

But Gu Mingchen saw hope. “So you aren’t sure if he’s dead or alive?” Bai Rong didn’t answer, and she kept munching on the meat. “Could your ex-husband be the culprit?” Gu Mingchen guessed.

“No. He didn’t know I didn’t take the abortion. He didn’t know that I had a baby. He only found out after the kidnap, and that’s because I asked for his help. The search had gone on for three years, but nothing came up.” Bai Rong was sure about it.

“Why’d you ask for his help? That baby isn’t his.” Gu Mingchen frowned.

“W-Well, I’ll marry you if you manage to find my baby,” Bai Rong joked, but she knew that was a slip of the tongue, and she took a deep breath. “Just joking.”

The light in Gu Mingchen’s eyes was dashed. “Let’s eat.”

And then his phone rang, but he hung up when he saw that it was Zhou Hailan calling him. His phone rang again, and it was still from Zhou Hailan.

“Take it. I’ll go with you later,” Bai Rong said calmly.

“She’s not in her best mental state.”

Bai Rong smiled. “I can stay here while you talk to her then.”

“That’s not what I meant.” Gu Mingchen looked at Bai Rong hesitantly.

“Are you worried that I might hurt her?” Bai Rong guessed.

“She’s mentally unstable and easily shocked. And she might get violent hurt you. Don’t go. At least not for now,” he explained.

She smiled. Ah, so he’s still worried I might hurt her. Well, I tried to help, and this is the thanks I get. ”Go. It’ll be ugly if she were to hurt someone.” Bai Rong smiled.

“I’ll be back,” he promised.

Bai Rong went back to her food, though she saw him off from the corner of her eye. If she had to spend her married life where her husband would leave the table for another woman, or even leave her alone in bed for someone else, it’d be torture to stay together.

It’s just three months. It’ll be over before I know it. She knew that was the case, but still she was irked.

Bai Rong wanted to call Liu Yan, but her friend had work the next morning. She should be sleeping at the moment, so Bai Rong didn’t want to wake her up.

Then, she hailed a ride from the military base to the nearest KTV and reserved a whole room for herself. She sang all the old breakup songs popular with the 90’s kids.

“I heard that you’re settled down. That you found a girl and you’re married now. I heard that your dreams came true. Guess she gave you things, I didn’t give to you. Old friend, why are you so shy? Ain’t like you to hold back or hide from the light. I hate to turn up out of the blue, uninvited. But I couldn’t stay away, I couldn’t fight it…” Tears streamed down her face as she sang, and in the end, her voice cracked. Unable to go on, she stared down, clenching her fists, her shoulders trembling.

Then, someone opened the door, and Bai Rong looked up, alarmed. Su Xuyan came in. “I know you’re lonely. Me too, so here I am.”

Bai Rong broke down even further. All she wanted to do was cry her heart out. She didn’t want to think anymore, fearing that she would be confused once again.

Su Xuyan sat beside her and wrapped his arm around her shoulder, but she pushed him away. “I might be wallowing in sadness and despair, but that doesn’t mean I’m going to hook up with any random guy.”

A tear fell from Su Xuyan’s left eye, much to her shock. “I’m not trying to hook up with you. Just trying to give you the love I can give.”

“Do you think that’s what I need?” she roared.

“That’s your issue. All I care about is whether I can give you my love or not. You can refuse me all you want, Bai Rong, just like how I did to you. Do you know why I didn’t do you in our three years of marriage?”

Bai Rong looked away, her tears muddying her sight. Even though she tried to wipe her tears away the best she could, it wouldn’t stop flowing.

“Because your father killed my father. I know my flames of vengeance would burn you one day, but I’ve liked you ever since I saw you, and that’s why I didn’t try to approach you. I was worried it might ruin my resolve to take my revenge. My plan was ruined in the end, because I can give everything up for you.”

“Su Xuyan!” She raised her voice. “Do you think three years is enough to wipe everything off the slate? Do you think it’s enough for me to forget what you did to me? You hurt me, slept with someone else, forced me into something I loathed and you were almost the death of me! I might be stupid, but I don’t forget.”

“I’m sorry, Bai Rong. That was just me venting my hatred on you. I won’t do it again. I’ve received my due punishment. It hurts me to see you cry. My heart died when I saw you killing yourself. I love you so, so much,” Su Xuyan gushed.

“Oh, so you love me, do you?” Bai Rong took out a knife from her backpack and tossed it to him. “Cut your dick off and I’ll stay by your side forever. What I want isn’t sex, but companionship. Genuine companionship. Can you do it?” she questioned him in a fit of impulse.

“Very well then. If you say so.” He picked the knife up and tried to slice himself, but Bai Rong closed her eyes and stopped him, the blade cutting into her forearm.

“Bai Rong,” Su Xuyan gasped, feeling guilty.

Bai Rong smiled, but tears were still streaming down her cheeks. “I’ve gone mad again, Su Xuyan, just like my mother.”

Su Xuyan gaped at her and her tears that flowed down her pale, pale face. “I’ll take you to the hospital,” he said sadly.

“I want to leave. I haven’t adjusted myself yet. I want to go back to the United States.” Bai Rong cried.

“Of course. You can go anywhere you want, and I’ll be right by your side, even if it’s the depths of hell.” Su Xuyan held down the wound on Bai Rong’s arm, crimson blood drenching his palm.

Bai Rong stood up groggily, then everything around her spun, and the world went black. Her phone rang, but she couldn’t hear it.