You Owe Me, My Love novel Chapter 246

“Bai Rong.”

Bai Rong had been standing at the side of the road and was in a stance for a long time. She didn’t come around until Cheng Jinrong called out to her. Despite that, her mind was still scrambled when she shifted her gaze to Cheng Jinrong’s car.

Right then, she started thinking about all of her past mistakes.

The source of confidence and satisfaction is ignorance.

I thought that I am smart and assumed that telling Gu Mingchen about Tian is the right thing to do.

But I’ve never even imagined that this is all a ruse.

I was the one who was too ignorant and egoistic. I’m weak and worthless! How can I be so dumb that I actually believe I have the capability to analyze things in a clear manner?

Bai Rong suddenly felt like everything she had done in the past simply made her look like a fool.

She struggled and barely survived, but all that was under someone else’s control.

Nonetheless, she didn’t care if she died. Her life was miserable, so she had nothing to look forward to, anyway. Death was just an end to all that.

But Gu Mingchen trusted me, and it’s my fault that his life is hanging in the balance, and his reputation is on the verge of being destroyed.

This is all my fault.

I should never have shown up again. Song Xiyu was right. Bad things had been happening to Gu Mingchen ever since I showed up.

If I had stayed away, Gu Mingchen would not have fallen for me once more. He and Zhou Hailan would’ve naturally gotten closer together, and they would’ve found their child soon.

Zhou Hailan is a soldier as well. Given how the two of them used to date, it is easy to see that they are attracted to each other and cared about each other.

He would’ve been happy, and his career would’ve grown smoothly.

As for me, I only bring misfortune to those who are close to me.

Cheng Jinrong saw that Bai Rong was behaving oddly, so he walked towards her. Indeed, at that moment, she was not moving at all.

“Bai Rong,” called out Cheng Jinrong.

Bai Rong turned to him. Instantly, her sorrow turned to tears, and they rolled down her cheeks.

Guilt overwhelmed her that instant. She could not take it anymore.

“What’s wrong?” asked Cheng Jinrong in a concerned tone.

Bai Rong shook her head and suggested, “Let’s head over to that piece of land and check things out.”

“Okay,” replied Cheng Jinrong before he opened the door to the passenger’s seat.

Without another word said, Bai Rong got into the car and buckled herself up.

Cheng Jinrong drove as he informed, “It’ll take us about half an hour to reach the place.”

“Okay,” replied Bai Rong. Keeping mum, she looked out the window, and tears kept rolling down her cheeks.

Cheng Jinrong shot a look at Bai Rong before asking, “Did you get into another fight with your husband?”

Nevertheless, Bai Rong didn’t answer him.

“Let go of that relationship if it’s really that tough, or your illness will just become worse. There are tons of great men out there, and life is a journey one should take with someone they could stay together forever.

“Time will make everything better, and the intense love you feel will slowly fade away. You will also start accepting the person you are with because the heart can change.

“Your love for your ex-husband had faded when you fell for your current husband, right? It’s the same thing. The love you have for your current husband will fade when you fall for someone else.

“In a year, you’ll look back at the matter and see that it’s not a big deal at all,” said Cheng Jinrong to comfort Bai Rong.

Bai Rong grinned bitterly at that.

She would never be with another man again, even if that meant that she had to spend the rest of her life alone.

Her heart and love would always be with the man named Gu Mingchen, and that would remain true, even if they couldn’t be together. All I want is to see him happy.

When Bai Rong was a teenager, she read a lot of romance novels. The contrast between the happily ever after and her current reality showed her how cruel things truly were.

How many could stay together as couples? How many couples were genuinely in love with one another? Can love last forever even after they become a couple?

Bai Rong wanted to cry aloud, but her tears could not change anything.

She thought about how things would’ve been if her neighbor never rescued her when Bai Bing tried to commit suicide and take her along for the ride. I won’t live to see how cruel the world is, and I will die with my mom. At least I would still have a shred of warmth in my heart, and at least I wouldn’t die lonely since I had my mom with me.

I won’t be suffering like I am now. I won’t be living an agonized life where there is no hope.

Cheng Jinrong could tell that Bai Rong was upset, so he parked the car at the side of the road and turned to Bai Rong while looking concerned.

At that instant, Bai Rong’s sobs become louder and louder until even Cheng Jinrong felt like crying.

“If you feel horrible, you can talk to me about it. You’ll feel better afterward. How about we compete against one another and see who has had it worse? Maybe you’d feel better,” suggested Cheng Jinrong with a grin.

There was a time when she wanted to kill herself because she felt like the whole world had wronged her.

At that moment, she was sad because she had wronged Gu Mingchen.

This is all my fault. I didn’t trust Gu Mingchen in the past, and that was why I was upset. But now… now I’m upset because Gu Mingchen trusted me.

Humans often contradicted themselves, and it was usually too late when they finally came around and saw through everything. All that was left was even more sorrow and regret.

Bai Rong wiped her eyes before she insisted, “Let’s head over to that plot of land.”

Cheng Jinrong stared at Bai Rong with worry glowing in his eyes. Still, he started the engine and drove.

Bai Rong heaved a sigh. She found it strange that her illness didn’t act up at that time. Was it because I’ve already made choice?

“Wei and I grew up together. We went to the same kindergarten, the same middle school, the same high school, and even the same university. We were close when we were in middle school and started dating when we were in high school. She wanted to get married after we graduated, but I wanted to start a business first. She waited year after year, and my temper became worse with each passing year. I never got to apologize or ask her to stay when she left,” shared Cheng Jinrong as he recalled his past.

“Looks like she never really intended to leave you. She just wanted you to care a little more and change a little for her,” guessed Bai Rong.

“I never changed. One time, I got drunk and slept with my subordinate. That subordinate was Wei’s best friend, and we ended up being in a relationship afterward. I tried my best to reel my temper in, but I never knew just how terrible I was to Wei until the last time you and I spoke.”

“She had been waiting for you the entire time. Is that why you wanted to turn over a new leaf and get back together with her?” asked Bai Rong.

“Yes, I want to go back, so I broke up with my girlfriend, Yang Ni,” replied Cheng Jinrong.

Bai Rong stared ahead.

In novels, the male lead would often remain loyal even if there were some misunderstandings between him and the female lead. They would eventually find their way back to one another and live happily ever after.

The reality, however, was that men would end up sleeping with another woman, and when he finally turned over a new leaf, the woman he loved would already be murdered.

“I will definitely help you catch the killer. Let’s head to the police station once we’re sure that military-grade weapons are found buried there.”

Earlier, Su Xuyan had given her a week to decide, and Bai Rong would, at most, need three days to solve Wei’s murder.

Since Bai Rong made a promise, she didn’t want to go back on her words.

Half an hour later, they reached their destination.

A lot of soldiers were stationed there, and no one was allowed to get too close.

Cheng Jinrong then walked up to a local resident and shared a cigarette with the guy before asking, “Hey, why are there so many soldiers here?”

“They came in the middle of the night and found a lot of military-grade weapons in there. It was so scary. I can’t believe that those weapons were buried right there, and we didn’t even know about it despite living in the area,” replied the man.

Bai Rong finally got her confirmation. Maybe it was because she had been expecting that answer, so she was rather calm to hear it. Thus, she simply said, “Let’s go.”