Zero and Beauty's Breath (A Satan Sniper's Motorcycle Club Series Book 3 - 4) novel Chapter 54

“You won't take me with you to see the horses?” Hannah's daughter Jo asks me. She has her entire face shoved in mine by the bar.

Zero and the other fully patched members are downstairs in the basement, having Church.

Whisp and Chadley are preparing food for everyone while Den and Jade guard the main gate.

I have been sitting here in the bar googling random shit, and babysitting Jo. But my mind is on finding Lucca, killing Thorn and finishing this shit with the club. Putting an end to these killings has now taken first place for the club but not to me. I see all of them as important.

What I don't think about is the new life growing inside my body. My mind shies away from that part which should be the most important piece in my life.

The last time it happened, the life growing inside of me was all I could think about. I was amazed that a filthy beggar as myself could carry a life. Something so precious.

Look where that ended up.

This is the part where I am supposed to think that this time is different, that I am different, but that would be a foolish thought.

I am much worse than I was. So, although I want to think about it, or how I am going to tell Zero, I do neither. I concentrate on the fucked-up parts of my life and a few sweet yet annoying ones. For instance, the little girl that acts like a boy who is currently blinking at me waiting for my answer to change. She is persistent.

“Fine, I’ll take you, just not now kid, why don't you go get me one of those muffins Chadley made?”

“If I do that, AFTER will you take me to see the horses? Pleeeeease Beggar, my papa said he ain't takin’ me to see shit until I fess up.” Her curly hair reminds me of a barbie doll. Those naughty eyes and thick eyebrows resemble a she demon.

The kid is cute, and has one hell of mean streak in her, but she is straight up.

When I got back earlier and heard the little demon screaming Papa, I was speechless to find out she was referring to River.

What shocked me more was that River was planning on proposing this week to Hannah. All the members of the club were coming to Kanla in a few days and one of those members so happened to be Zero’s dad, Toad.

Not sure how that was going to play out. The last time he came to Kanla while I was around was the night I ran away from the clubhouse.

Zero said he came around a few times while Kylie and I were Lucca's prisoners. Zero also mentioned that his dad knew about my connection to Lucca but not my connection to his brother, Thorn.

That piece of information is the most important part, it holds my identity in his eyes. I wonder a lot at night about his dad’s reaction to me when he finds out that I am not just the woman his son sleeps next to, but I am his other son’s killer.

Even now as I sit here with this innocent girl looking at me with such trusting eyes, I am still a killer and my death toll has not reached its limit yet.

My stomach growls from hunger and my mouth waters as I think of how nice those muffins are going to taste.

“I'll tell you what, if you get me two muffins, I'll take you to see those horses and give you one of those chocolate ice-creams Knight keeps stashed in the barn fridge.” I wink at her, watching her face transform as it brightens.

She jumps down and like Jo, she is gone.

“I think the idea of punishing a kid is so that they learn a lesson. I don't think allowing her to go see the horses after she let them out is teaching her anything,” Whisp voices out as she walks into the bar area.

Her hair is now cut so short and dyed ash blonde, it makes her face stand out. She looks gorgeous like this.

“I think not fessing up when you did something good, is a lesson in itself and should be rewarded, besides she didn't do it.” I drink the rest of my fruit juice and slam the plastic bottle on the counter.

“Then Ms Detective, who the hell did? It took us two hours getting those horses back in the barn.”

“I ain't no snitch,” I inform the woman that once hated me, now I would say we were getting to the friend zone. But I wouldn't go as far as saying or believing that we were already there.

“Oh, come on Beggar, who am I going to tell?” She gives me that big eyed stare she gives the men whenever she is trying to convince them of something. Thank fuck I don't have a dick or I'll cave.

“Someone, and before we know it, the entire Clubhouse would know.” Hearing Jo's sneakers skidding on the floor, I get up off my chair as she comes running into the bar area holding two cupcakes instead of the muffins.

They don't have frosting on it as yet, but these are the red ones, my favourite.

“Thanks kid.” I take the one and wink at her, as I take a big bite.

Jo bites into hers too, the kid is cute.

“Let's go before the men get done.”

I leave Whisp standing in the bar with Jo walking next to me.

“You know, I never really opened the stable. I keep tellin’ everyone it wasn't me, but nobody besides Uncle Spade believes me.”

“I believe you kid, in fact I know who did.”

“You lie, who was it?”

I stop on the hill as she jumps in front of me, her mouth messy with crumbs.