Besotted

I threw my things on the floor as I ran to my bed and threw myself on the bed hugging the pillow as I cried my eyes out. It was the moment, I realized how alone I was. My eyes fell on my parent's picture on the wall and that made me sob more.

"I really wish you were here," I mumbled as sleep overtook me and I closed my eyes letting slumber taking over me.

I don't give a fuck as long as you are with me.

I will always love you.

I love you.

I jolted up from my sleep as I clutched the pillow tightly. How could he turn from the most beautiful and sensible thing to a nightmare? How could this happen to me? Just a kiss and everything around me was broken. Caleb just took it another level because Eden kissed me.

All the time that we spent together seemed like a nightmare to me. It seemed as if I did the biggest mistake of my life being with him. The man hated me and anything he wanted from me was to take over my body and my soul. He had no respect for me but the only thing he wanted was to control me.

I tried my best to tell him that he was mistaken but every time he pushed me away with a whip of a hunter wanting to hurt me. I could never forget the words that he used for me. The man I once thought would be everything to me was just a devil.

Now I was even scared to think about him. My body shook and trembled as I thought about the eyes he had when he talked to me, accusing me, calling me names that I didn't deserve only for a single mistake. If only I had been in my right sense of mind, I would have never allowed him to get closer to me for a bit.

I got off the bed and got rid of my clothes as I threw the beige shirt into the dustbin because he had ripped its button and I no longer wished to see anything that would make me remember him and walked into the bathroom for a shower.

I saw my face in the mirror as I turned the shower on. It was puffy and red from all the crying. The worst part was my neck and chest were covered with hickeys. I rubbed them wanting to get rid of them when all of a sudden I felt shame and disgust washing over me, I broke down and fell on my knees on the bathroom tile as the water fell on me.

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I refused to walk out of my apartment and talked with the security not to

in my apartment. My sadness remained making

I felt tired as if the whole energy drained out of my body just because of what happened between me and Caleb. My phone vibrated and I saw an email

I needed to rise up and remain walking ahead. Jewelry designing was my dream but here I was, starving myself to sleep all because

felt cold as I thought of wearing a red shirt and denim jacket over it and threw on my jeans as

eyes for a brief second calming down my nerves and feeling fresh. The walk to

and it had Caleb's face on the front for being in Forbe's. I

had in my chest was even worse and I felt as if I am betraying myself because I was still thinking about him. No

apartment seemed like an eternity because it felt as if I was only dragging myself from here and there. As soon as I turned towards my street,

Caleb.

thinking, I turned around wanting to be out of sight. I didn't have the courage to face him and I had no wish to let him assault me

the sprint I just did some minutes ago but for the anxiety that build up in me after I saw him. I was just about to wipe my

"Sang!"

to react because all of a sudden he got out of his car and was running to

waiting for you.

over between us. But all of a sudden I was pulled into a tight hug. My mind went blank when I found my body collapsing on his arms as he held me tightly as if I would vanish any second

his cologne and his

I felt him caressing my hair but again the memories

"Sa-"

topple down if I looked into his eyes because it was what made me fell in love with him. His eyes always