Camp Closeted

Me, Sascha, and Rama stayed in the library with complete dead silence. We didn't know what to do to help us process what just happened and I don't think we ever will.

Romeo just casually kept rocking his head to the music he was listening to and it made my blood boil. Was he that heartless to the point of not willing to care for something so serious?

I quickly averted my eyes away from Romeo before my anger only gets fueled more and empowers me to break a chair behind his back.

Sascha didn't bother loosening his grip around Rama's tan muscular arm as he was quietly whimpering. Every time I heard him whimper, it didn't fail to rip a piece off my heart.

"T-there's no way he's dead." I blurted out, my voice slightly cracky as their eyes slowly landed on me. "He can't be. He just can't."

Rama sniffed as he deeply breathed, Sascha's large brown eyes filled with such broken emotions. "I don't know man, taking 4 Xanax pills is a lot."

Just before anyone could've talked, the sound of Romeo's smug chuckle emitted around the library, causing us to sharply glare at him in strong disgust.

"Are you seriously laughing right now?" I spoke slow, my voice magnifying great fury as Romeo leaned back against his chair, amused.

Romeo carelessly rolled his hazel eyes as he threw his head back out in annoyance. "4 Xanax pills? That's it?" He let out loudly. "You guys are fucking stupid, he's not dead. He's probably just in a deep sleep."

I quickly thrashed my body up, my fists clenching as I ran towards him. Romeo's narrowed eyes followed me darting towards him as my fist rapidly swung towards his smirking face. "Fuck you!" I screamed, his hand effortlessly stopping me from punching him.

"How are you so weak?" Romeo raised an eyebrow at me as it only made me angrier.

Just before I could've tried swinging again, Romeo quickly looked behind me, Sascha's fragile voice appearing, making my face quickly soften. "Do you really think so?" He croaked out.

Sascha's pale lips we're subtly quivering together as tears bunched up in his reddened eyes. Romeo taking a closer look at how broken Sascha genuinely looked visibly caught him off guard, almost embarrassing him for some reason. "Y-yea." Romeo stuttered as he stared back at Sascha with widened eyes.

"Sascha we should go." Rama, whom was a distance away from Sascha quietly started to speak. "We'll drive to the hospital and see how Cade is doing, come on."

Sascha ignored Rama for only a second, still looking at Romeo. "I don't really know you, but I just wanna say that I'm not stupid." He sniffed, his voice sounding like it could break anytime now. "When you love someone, seeing them even get a small cut can even mean such a big deal because you don't ever want them to get hurt. You probably don't understand it but caring a lot is not stupid." He bit his lip, slowly beginning to walk away with Rama. "It just opens up a different part of your humanity."

I glanced back at Romeo as his face was now clear from any facial expression, Rama and Sascha proceeding to quietly leave the library.

Silence struck throughout the whole room as I glared at him now. "You're a terrible person Romeo." I shook my head as I went back to sit at the table, deeply sighing as I didn't know if I was even in the mood to continue working again.

Romeo slowly put his head down, his deep voice responding back. "It's not my fault that you guys made a big deal out of nothing. It doesn't matter if he loves him or not, the guy is a druggie. If anything, he deserves to die for being so careless, but he won't."

"You just don't get it." I slightly squinted my eyes at the bright light coming from my laptop, darkness slowly looming over the library. "You're nothing but a cold, selfish, asshole. I know you know how to care but you choose not to." I began to type.

give in. "What the fuck even is the point in caring about someone else?" I thought he was just trying to be rude, but he genuinely sounded like he was asking a question, which made me realize how kind of

other people is important and I know you know this. Without care, the world would just be filled with terrible people. Doesn't

He dryly responded.

at him. "How

shrugged, annoyingly repeating

Romeo. Even if he doesn't fully understand you for you, there has to be at least an ounce of

quickly spoke, volume starting to grow. "He already said if I come home from this

face unconsciously crinkled. "He said that?" Romeo remained quiet, indicating that responding yes would probably want unwanted emotions to come up

homophobic and people there would be down to kill

began to wonder how gay people are surviving in Russia.

He softly replied, our eyes now meeting.

I doubt your dad would let that happen to you." I breathed, making him tightly clench his jaw at me

met him? Are you that dumb? Just because you felt care all

hair looked like a soft caramel cloud and it slightly covered

had his own captivatingly attractive sunset, right on his chiseled face and I didn't know how to feel about it.

me weird so I quickly looked away from my creepy gaze. "Well, I don't really know what to say other than I'm pretty sure there's people out there

I'd choose to notice it? If there were people who cared for me I wouldn't be here sitting

face were defined by his frustration. "Okay, fine, maybe nobody cares about you, but so what?

expression remaining the same as I continued to speak. "Like that day when I was clearly drunk from that party, you cared enough to take me home. When I was high, you cared enough to feed me." I continued to weakly speak as Romeo's face slowly softened, but not much. "You cared enough to get off your car and kiss me back.

us

as his cheeks began to burn so bright, his dilated eyes almost shifting at me. "Micah." My name left his mouth like deep velvet silk as hearing him say my name sounded so differently satisfying this time.

don't even try and deny it." I blurted out, interrupting his sentence that he was being so hesitant on saying. "I don't care how much you hate me. You can

glimmer went across his eyes. I knew him being able not to deny it angered him greatly as I just sighed.

out of place right now but it seemed like whatever facial expression Romeo did, it

this, complimented by his tan dewy skin that always glowed radiantly against any light that hit against it.

of a sudden I felt a sudden rush of emotions inside me, my body being hot all of a sudden as I breathed out heat,

was everything that described perfection but his personality was so damaged made me feel slightly

awkwardly broke eye contact and looked down

I immediately let out a deep sigh of relief and smiled widely. I held my phone closely to my stomach. I couldn't even hide

Romeo softly asked.

texts. "The doctor said he's just in a deep sleep. He should be able to wake up

It was true.

He is okay.