Her Volkovs #Book 1

Belle's POV

Nikolai and I are spooning on his bed. He's resting his tattooed arm around my stomach just below my breasts. I can feel his warm breath on my nape causing small sparks of electric current down my spine.

"Hmmm.." He murmured. Nikolai inhales deep on my skin at the back of my right ear while planting small warm kisses. "I want you baby....."

I can feel his warm tongue touch my now vulnerable skin in between kisses. Slowly, I can feel my body flush. My abdomen is constricting like hell in response to every sensation that Nikolai is causing my body.

His hand explores my curvatures. From my thigh up to my breasts. He then slowly climbs on top of me while pushing my body to the bed to face him. He cups my left breast with his right hand and squeezed it gently. His beautiful green eyes are keenly observing every bit of my reaction. He parted his lips a little as his torso rubs against mine.

I inhaled deep as I try to catch my breath. At the back of my mind, I think I know what's going to happen next. Oh god, is this it? The reason in my head tells me to slow down and to stop but my heart is telling me otherwise.

While his eyes are still glued to me, I can feel his hand slowly reaching down my red lace underwear. It is really happening. Am I going to let go of the one thing I have been holding on to my whole life for this night and to this marvel of a man?

"Stop. Please. I'm not ready." The tiny voice of reason inside my head won over my heart.

"I'm sorry Nikolai."

"Look at me. You don't have to say sorry." Nikolai said as he tries to remove my hands off of my face. All the more that feel guilty right now because of his reaction. Part of me wishes he did not have to be this understanding. Part of me wants him to get mad at me for leading him to this.

"Baby please, I can't stand seeing you like this. I am sorry. Just look me in the eyes I'm begging you." I feel like my heart is being slowly crushed hearing Nikolai plead to me like this.

I can't do it. I don't want to see his face and I don't want him to see me like this. This is all my fault! I shouldn't have allowed the situation to come to this point. I should have been clear to him about this.

Next thing I know, Nikolai removed himself off of me and walked away from the bed.

yelled and banged the door

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eyes wider, I see a familiar silhouette.

my feet on his right thigh. "Where did you go last night Nikolai?" I said as I rest

chance to leave. Why are you still

want

even closer to him by wrapping his arm around my waist and pressing my

"I'm sorry Nikolai."

It's not your fault. What happened last night got the best

looks like he wasn't able to sleep at all. He's

It's going to be the both of us, from here

idea

out whatever it is that you're not telling me, then you are mistaken. Never under estimate my love for you Nikolai." He

I asked out of curiosity because

Tell me at once or I will think the

leave, I made sure the doors were locked so there's no way you can leave." He replied teasingly. I can't decipher if he's being serious or

you are crazy you

for one second to leave

Minus the

let out a wide grin at him. Nikolai smiled and shook his head as he squeezes me towards

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my way out of it but eventually I just let go. Nikolai is exhausting to argue with. Alexei was right when he said that when Nikolai puts his head into

what happened last night and I love him now even more. He did not force his way to me. He even blamed himself for it. I am going to do my