If only he loved me too

Erika P.O.V

"Ma'am, it's time," my secretary informs me and I glance at the wall clock in my office, huh! It's almost 9 pm. time runs faster when you love what you do.

I smile at Sarah "You can go ahead, I will lock up when I'm done" I smile at her and she gives me a worried look, I know that look. she has been giving me that look for almost four years now.

Sarah is in her late forties with blonde hair, blue eyes, and a friendly smile always plastered on her face, maybe not right now but it always there

I smile at her again "I'll leave in 10, I promise" she smiles back but still worried, but leaves none the less. I sigh and get back to my work it's hard, working for an IT company also as the General manager but I've worked hard for this position and it's worth it.

I pack up in 10 minutes as promised and lock my room. I walk down the hallway to the elevator and press 0 at the parking lot. I walk to my black Auston martini and drive off to my house or OUR house I sigh and park in our driveway but find it empty. it's not a surprise that I'm home alone and I know it's been like this for four years but it still hurts, it didn't in the beginning but now it does.

open the door, being

the dead silent two-story house, I don't have maids because we are seldom home, I change

is Dimitri, you

is my husband, been like that for almost four and a half years,

sad and longing look, I didn't mean for it to end like this but this is

chicken until it's medium cooked. I have my dinner in silence and put the dirty dish in the dishwasher, cracking my stiff neck a

all this luxury but I don't, it doesn't matter how much these costs but money alone is never enough, it wouldn't hurt so much if it were just me but being married and alone is kind of sad and depressing. I know I don't have the right to complain since I agreed to this but no

out, I just can't. I keep glancing at the clock on the side table and it reads

still not

but still not here. this always makes me think of the first time I did this, waiting for him I mean. it will always feel