In My Desperate Time

I run to the bathroom and lock the door.

I lean against the door, and my heart feels like being pressed by a heavy stone, which makes me breathless.

I see things simply. I didn’t expect that things have just started and I have begun to think that it is not easy to stay at Frances Louis’s side.

I have prepared to throw my dignity away, but in the end, he tramples me to pieces.

Below me, there is a muddy liquid flowing out, with a silk of red.

Of course, I know. It's not my period. It's my transformation from girl to woman.

How ironic!

What's the point of this blood coming out now?

Can I bring Frances Louis in and show him?

“Jane Noyes, maybe your life is just a joke.”

I walk to the shower with a wry smile, open the shower head, carefully wash my soring body, and wash off the blood on the floor.

Let all these unimportant things go with the water. I just want to solve my brother problem through Frances Louis, and I don't want to think about anything else.

I don't know how long I've been in there. The foggy water fills in the bathroom, and I feel a little dizzy.

But I don't want to go out, I don't want to face Frances Louis' scrutiny.

At least, not tonight.

There is a rhythmic knock on the door, followed by the voice of Frances Louis.

“How long will you be in there? You wash yourself so long, Are you not clean, or I am not clean?”

I am shocked and don’t know what to do.

I am glad I have closed the door, or Frances Louis might have come in.

“Right…right away.”

I reply quietly, ready to get a towel to wipe the body, but suddenly I slip

back of my head hits the floor so hard that I black

doing? Get out?!” The unhappy voice

me, but I don’t want him to see me naked. Although, he has seen everything.

I can hear everything around me. But my tongue is like knotted,

God, no! Can anything worse happen to me?

again

Then, the world becomes quiet.

think he has gone, but the door is kicked open.

Frances Louis rushes in.

his burning eyes on me, and my skin is boiling hot. But I couldn't open my eyes. I have no idea what expression of

Never mind. It is better not to see him, so as not to die of embarrassment under his eyes.

holds me up. I feel soft under him. He probably

to feel less dizzy and regain some strength.

I was

I don’t know whether Frances Louis is in the

my eyes a little, and meet Frances Louis's eyes.

on his face, but

still naked. The air conditioning opens, he could at least

Louis has

At the thought of this, my face suddenly blushes. I pull over the quilt and cover my

are you still up?” I turn my head away

you lock the doors and windows. If I had come in later, you would have been in heaven.”

Louis glances at

Hearing what he said, I guess I was poisoned by carbon

Damn it. I have not solved

and he picks it up gently.

“Well, I know. Wait. I'll be

I think it is a woman on the other end of the line. He would be so gentle to a woman.

Who is she? Is that woman

my business. Frances Louis and I just take what we need, and neither

him for Frank Noyes.

he gets up and says, “you sleep first. I have to go out for

something to talk