Lie To Me

Making myself busy through tons of paper works really well. Three days since I returned to work, I have had no first concern but to spend my whole morning at work. It was tiring but helpful.

I got my mind really occupied that I almost forgot what bothers me the past few weeks. It's really just when I go home, because no matter how much I exhaust myself at work, when the time comes when I don't do anything and I'm alone, that's where my mind flies towards that person.

It's exhausting.

You keep looking back only to feel sorry for yourself in the end.

It's been a year and up until now, I am still questioning myself what I lacked, what went wrong, or is there something I failed to do.

I know I did everything beyond what I had believed was my limitation.

That person, I loved him in a way I never thought I could do. I took a risk thinking he would be worth all that trouble. I had surpassed my expectation for myself because I wanted to love him with all the things I had.

still, those are not enough. I was still

the question I kept on asking

What am I missing?

Where am I missing?

Why?

pity myself for still seeking justification

in the evening and we're barely in the office. I'm the only one in our department and the others are Hans’

tomorrow so they will definitely do

I decided to order boxes of pizza and gave it to them as I bid goodbye. They are also close to me and giving them a little more encouragement is a small thing. Hans often do the same when it was my team who will

reminded me. It even opened my car door and even helped

away, okay? Don't get too tired so you still have energy tomorrow for the presentation." I ordered. He just nodded

Go ahead,"