Caraphernelia
- a broken-heart disease that occurs whenever someone leaves you, but leaves all of their things behind
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"Tell me to leave." He says.
I didn't answer.
"Push me away. Treat me like a complete shit like how I treated you before." he says.
I didn't answer again.
He looks at me and my eyes couldn't look away. Oh Nick I can't do that. Even if you hurt me, I can't hurt you like that cos I love you and I'm too scared of pushing you away cos I know you won't come back.
"Make me leave Savannah." He added.
I shake my head, my words are not coming out from my lips and I don't know why.
"If you'll tell me to go then I'll go. I'll leave you." He continues as I feel his breath on my neck. But I shake my head once again.
His arms were wrapping around my entire body. He's hugging me close to him that I can't seem to move away cos I love our position. My arms were on my sides. I'm not hugging him back. I don't want to feel anything attached to us anymore cos I'm the only one who's going to get hurt. I'm the only one who'll cry over this.
"I just don't know how to stop myself from wanting you." His lips are moving now, kissing his way up on my ear.
"Then don't." I say.
He shakes his head. "But you don't deserve this. You don't need this."
I shut my eyes. I don't need this but I want this. I'm as confused as you Nick. I know what I want but I just don't know how long will I want it. I don't know how long I could endure this pain
His lips moving up on my jaw, giving it a quick kiss then he moves his way to my mouth. He kisses me lightly while his hands were both cupping my cheeks. My lips is opening intently for him and I kiss him back. I pull him closer to me so I could feel him against me. Here I go again, loosing it just cos he's kissing me. It's wrong cos this will hurt me more. I know after this thing, it will end ugly like the other times but I just want this so much.
He pauses and looks into my eyes as if he's looking for a stray eyelash. "I can't give you more than this." He whispers.
"I know Nick. I know." My voice is shaking and I know he notices it too.
I'm feel like crying again. Damn it.
"I just can't." He added.
But I pulled him in towards me until our lips are kissing again not caring what he said, and not caring if it will hurt me. We completely devour each other. It's been almost a month since we saw each other. Almost a month since we kissed, touched and fucked. He leads me to the bed while we were racing to get each other naked.
I take a few steps back carefully while our lips were still connected to each other. He pulls out my baggy shirt off of me and I help him unbutton his pants while he pulled out his shirt off of him too.
"Let's fuck until my feelings are gone Nick." I tell him.
the back of my knee that we were close to
sure?" He
stopping this. I
it will hurt
even though it's already
takes off his jeans along with his boxer brief and his erection springs free. He opens the foil and puts on the condom over his length then he slips my underwear off of me. He's over me, against me and the next
sex. I reminded myself. He's not giving you the other part of him Savannah. Stop assuming and
other. Our eyes were open. I'm not closing my eyes cos I'm trying to stop myself from loving him too much. I'm not closing my eyes cos I don't want my emotions to get involve with this. But as I look into his eyes while we kiss, the way his eyes looks at
know you want me Nick. I know you do. I can tell it by the way you look
body arches a little as I clawed the bedsheets while his hand was holding my waists. I feel him gaining speed and more speed. He slams into me deeply for a second then the next he's pulling out. He's repetitive and his speed is constant. A little voice whispers to my ears that this is ugly. What we
this is all
"Don't stop." I moaned.
runs his tongue over
up placing it in between our chests.
God!" I moaned and calling
much greatness inside. The movement is too good. His lips landed on mine and
I'm shaking.
My legs are shaking.
body is
and
lips is still on my mouth. "Savannah." He's
"Fuck." He curses.
pulls out slowly from me and we were both trying to catch our breath. "Us.
tiredly smile. "I
we lie down together quietly. My thoughts were trying to sink in
to let him use me cos
least I'm
force himself that this wasn't more
makes everything okay, like we didn't have a fight. What we have is so ugly but I still
I love Nick.
a fool for him but I'd be a fool for
Only Nick.
you deal with
at him. "I'm not sure how but
right above me. He leans over and reaches for my lips, he kissed me really quickly. We looked at each other
I'm already hurting you too much, I want you to tell me when you can't take it anymore cos we'll stop this." He
you seriously want this
He didn't answer me.
we don't have any label. Though we're not in a commitment. Though I don't have any hold on to you but I know
do you want
I love you Nick." My voice
love you back? I told you Savannah, I
fall again. I just can't let him
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