Mates with Alpha Maddox novel Chapter 40

It has gotten to the point that I worry that the old Maddox will never come back.

At first he tried to act like his old self, he tried to hug me, tried to smile but his hugs were cold and his smile was fake. I could see right through them. The way his eyes are empty but at the same time filled with ire.

At first I thought it was me, I thought he blamed me for what happened. For what the evil man did to me but then after the days passed I figured out that the hate he felt wasn't towards me. It was towards himself and towards the evil man.

He blamed himself for what happened. He thought it was his fault but I know it wasn't.

After a few days he stopped trying to make me think that the old him was still there. He completely closed off, he didn't hug me, he didn't smile.

And it hurt because even though Kyle and I are twins, Maddox and I had a stronger connection. Kyle was always flying around the world. But Maddox was always here with me and losing him felt like losing a part of myself.

"Can you go to your own room Kyle? I want to sleep alone tonight" I lie.

Kyle looks at me worriedly "What about the nightmares?

"I won't have them" I promise.

He reluctantly nods "Okay, I love you sis"

"Love you too Kyle" I say and watch as he leaves.

I quickly stand up and see him close his bedroom door. When he does I grab a jacket and put it, and then some sneakers.

I tip toe out of the house and look around. It was dark out and I couldn't see anyone.

"What are you doing out?" I let out a scream at turn around to see Maddox standing there with jeans and a black hoodie.

"I-uh, um what are you doing out?" i ask instead.

"I am an adult, you are a kid. Go back inside" He orders.

I shake my head defiantly "No"

Maddox clenches his jaw "Go back inside. I was on my way to the-. Somewhere and your fucking loud footsteps interrupted me so get back inside and go to sleep"

I sigh, my eyes watering slightly. It hurt that he was talking to me like that.

Maddox's face soften and he whispers "Just go back inside" And with that he starts walking away. I walk back into the house and look at the window.

When I see where Maddox walks into my heart speeds up.

I quickly open and close the door not really worried about Kyle hearing since he like me hasn't shifted yet and won't hear anything.

I run towards the cellar, my dad had shown me it a long time ago. He had told me to stay away there is no way I am doing that.

I slowly put my hand on the handle of the metal door and wince as it creaks while it opens.

When I walk in I immediately see people inside cells. Most were sleeping but about two were awake a looking at me creepily.

I pulled my jacket closer to myself as I walked through the dim lit hall.

My heart was beating a million times a second and I was questioning why I even walked in here. When I reach the end of the hall I see another metal door that I carefully open while praying that nobody on the other side is there to kill me.

Inside the room with the metal door was the evil man, as soon as I saw him my heart started beating even faster than before and my head started pounding.

The evil man was obviously unable to hurt me now though. He was sitting in a dentist like chair where his hands and feet were cuffed which what I am guessing its silver.

To say he was in a bad shape was an understatement, he had deep wounds all over his body some had pus and some had blood coming out of it. His whole face was swollen, in a way he almost couldn't open his eyes and there was a lot of blood coming from his crotch area, like if it was dripping.

The evil man looked to be passed out at the moment. I heard loud footsteps from another door and quickly hid behind a few boxes.

I peeked through the side and saw Maddox come inside the room. He was wearing jeans, a black hoodie and had his headphones blasting loudly. Maddox was holding a bucket full of something at splashed it on the evil guy. He threw the bucket and everything on him.

"Wake up" Maddox growled.

The evil man slowly opened his eyes and Maddox grabbed a knife and without even blinking made a long cut down the side of his face. The evil man squirmed and yelled but Maddox kept going.

Maddox then takes off his headphones and turns to the smiles at the evil guy, a cruel sadistic smile.

"With what hand did you inject my sister and my parents?" Maddox asks calmly.

The evil guys starts crying "Please, I am sorry. Let me go" he begs and Maddox stabs him in the thigh.

Maddox clenches his jaw "I asked you what hand"

"The right one" The evil man gasps out.

Leaving the knife in his thigh Maddox grabs some kind of weird looking scissors and grabs the evil man's right hand.

"Please no, stop" The evil man pleads but Maddox doesn't listen. Instead he tight grasps the wrist of the evil man and one by one starts cutting off The evil man's fingers.

"Did you stop when my sister told you to?" Maddox asks.

The evil man starts sobbing "It's different, you are cutting me open! Nobody deserves this pain!"

Maddox stares at the evil man with hate and in one quick movement pulls the knife out of his thigh and made a deep gash on his stomach.

All the evil guy can do is cry and scream as Maddox continuously tortures him.

Just like all I could do was cry when he was abusing me.

"You räped my sister, you killed my parents and you want me to stop?" Maddox hisses.

"Let me go man" The evil man pleads.

Instead of answering Maddox takes another knife and stabs the evil man in the crotch area where it had already been bleeding before but it was now bleeding 5 times as much.

The evil man screams and then passes out probably from the pain.

"Why don't you kill him?" I surprise myself by saying, Maddox immediately turns around with wide eyes.

"What are you doing here Nicole?" He asks, slowly walking towards me.

I shrug "I followed you"

"Are you scared of me now?" Maddox asks me and for the first since what happened he showed some emotion.

Shaking my head I answer "I am not scared of you"

I hug Maddox tightly and he tenses.

"I have blood all over me" he mumbles patting my head.

"I need a hug Maddox, please" I beg and he nods. Wrapping his hands around me tightly.

"I'm scared of what it will make me" Maddox says after a while.

I pull away "What?"

He sighs "I am scared of what killing him will make me. I am not the same guy I was 2 weeks ago and we all know. If I kill him I will be a killer."

"Then don't kill him Maddox" I say softly but Maddox shakes his head.

"I need to kill him, if I don't I'll go insane. I am so filled with hate. Towards him, myself. I know if I kill him it will all be over." Maddox looks at the ground.

"Then kill him, right now" I say.

Maddox nods "I will, but I am going to walk you home first"

I shake my head "No Maddox, I need this. I need to know he is dead. I need the nightmares to be over. To know he can't get to me anymore and hurt me."

Without even questioning me Maddox nods then grabs a blade.

He then grabs The evil man's hair and starts cutting evil man's head off.

I see as blood starts pouring out of the evil man's neck and start feeling a calmness. Knowing he will never hurt me again.

When his head is completely off of his body Maddox throws it on the floor and does the same with the blade then walks toward a small sink and washes his hands.

I give him a small smile and he gives me a half a smile back.

*Flashback over*

Jayda's POV

"-And after that Maddox stopped trying to avoid me and Kyle. We started being a family again. Maddox is a quarter of the self he once was. With us only though. With people who aren't Kyle or me then he acts closed off. I didn't think he would start becoming the Maddox we once knew. But then he met you and he smiles more. He jokes around more and I actually think that one day the old Maddox will come back" Nikki says looking at me with a smile.

By the end of this story I am full on sobbing, I can't help it. Maddox and Nikki went through so much yet they are so strong.

"Its okay, there there Jayda. Don't cry" Nikki mumbles rocking me back an forth.

"Wait why are you comforting me?" i ask, wiping my nose with a napkin.

Nikki grins "Because you are weeping like a baby"

Baby.

Baby!

"Oh Nikki I am so sorry! You wanted to tell me about your problem and didn't even have a chance to. You can tell me now." I say, feeling awful I interrupted her story with my crying.

She looks at the floor "The silver the guy injected into me did something. The doctors still don't know why but I haven't been able to get pregnant."

"Why don't you get someone else to carry your baby?" I ask her.

"Like a surrogate?" Nikki asks.

"Yes, it will be 100% your baby. Just that someone else will carry it. And if everything fails there is always adoption Nikki" I tell her with a smile and her eyes light up.

"That is a great idea, I am going to tell Luke right away" She says standing up.

"We still need to pay, go ahead and call Luke of you want I'll pay and be right out" I say and Nicole nods and walks outside to call her mate.

I signal the waiter and pay for our food.

I walk outside and see a guy smoking next to the door. As soon as the smell of smoke enters my nose nausea hit me and I run towards the bushes and puke all of my food.

Nikki is immediately beside me, grabbing my hair as I vomit my guts out. When I am finally done I wipe my mouth. Reaching for my purse I grab a water bottle and take a gulp then spit it out to get the ugly vomit taste out of my mouth.

"Are you okay?" Nikki asks me and I nod.

"I think I am sick, every time I smell sea food or cigarettes I puke. Its awful" I whine and Nikki looks at me with a face splitting grin.

"Jayda?" Nikki says.

"Yeah?" I ask.

"Lets go to the pharmacy"