More Than Lust novel Chapter 3

Grace's pov

After taking shower i finally came out of the washroom. My eyes are burning after crying, i am used to it by now.

I wore dress and got ready for the work. No matter how much I hate it, i can't stop working for him otherwise he will destroy us within seconds. My heart burns whenever I thought about my situation. It feels like I am drowning in a bog, i am trying to hold on something to survive, trying to breath but everything is slipping from my hands like wet mud. It's suffocating.

Wiping my tears I did my hair and tried to hide his marks. My neck is full of hickeys.

I wore my old blue dress which is decent enough for office. I am getting short of clothes but shopping is the last thing which I should do right now. I can't do it when I have mountain of debt on my head.

Sighing I walked downstairs, we have small two story house which is actually not in very good condition. I don't have money to renovate it. I feel very bad when I see crispy walls and broken furniture.

My stomach growled in hunger, I have to eat something after last night. I feel weak. As usual disappointment flashed on my face when I opened the freezer. It's empty, what was I expecting. I don't even have enough money to buy groceries. After paying the installments of loan i only get one thousand dollars in my hands from which I have to manage house expenses and other basic things.

I made coffee for myself and sat at the dining table. Looks like it's my only meal today.

I just hope it ends soon. It's been three and half months I am doing this, 15 days more and it will be over. I will be free from him.

"Good morning"

Dad said while coming inside. Where did he come from? Was he out whole night?

"I went for a walk..."

He said while sitting beside me.

"I brought this sandwich for you... I know there is nothing in the freezer."

"Thanks"

I really needed it.

"Grace, how is it going?... Are you doing okay?"

He asked sadly.

"I know It's____"

"Dad, i am fine"

I trailed off.

"Everything will be fine within few days... I am getting late, i should leave"

I said and walked out. He doesn't know what I am doing to pay his loan. I can't meet his gaze, i feel ashamed.

Releasing a heavy sigh i started walking towards the Office building. It's on half an hour distance, i can't waste money on cab or bus so I take a walk everyday. It's a cold day today, it's not snowing yet but soon it will. Christmas used to be my favourite but this time I am not even a bit excited for it.

After half an hour I am finally standing in front of his office building. I walked inside, trying to ignore regular employees.

I walked through digital security and went to the 2nd floor where all employees are already working. Everyone looks relaxed which shows that he haven't come to the office yet.

I wish he Don't come today, my day will be less stressful.

Suddenly everyone got alert and quietly took their places, air around me got tensed and i know who is the reason behind it.

All flour went pin drop silent. I am the only one who is standing in Middle of the way.

I decided to look up but those familiar shiny expensive shoes came in my view and I dropped the idea.

I am not going to look in his eyes, never.

'anything but not eyes Grace... Not eyes.'

I warned myself.

I kept my head low, I am too scared to do something. I want to run from his site but it feels like my legs are Frozen. I don't want him to insult me in front of everyone.

But sometimes I force myself to think does he even remember my face, why would he? I am just a random girl who is warming his bed for money. I know his thinking won't be good about me. He must be thinking so low of me. Will he recognise me if he sees me outside of his bedroom and office cabin.

Does he even recognise my face?

I gulped when he walked passed by me. he didn't even spare me a glance, like i am a stranger, like he wasn't fucking the life out of me entire night. Not like i was expecting him to greet me but how can he be so normal while I am dying every second. I closed my eyes as his scent teased my senses and remind me of every night which I have spent with him. He has strong additive scent but for me it's another thing which presence scares me.