Now and Forever

Jessica.. Jessica.. Jessica..

Is he having an affair with with her? Is that why he got so mad? That I picked up the phone instead of him-

"Amelia!" Bella shouted and snapped her fingers in my face.

"Wha- Huh?"

"Are you still thinking about-"

"What? Of course not." I looked away and tucked my hair behind my ear- a habit I do when I'm lying and Bella knew this as well.

"You're lying." She stated.

"No I'm not-"

"Don't bother.." She waved me off and fell back on her bed.

"It's that obvious?" I asked after a few seconds of silence as I played with my fingers.

"Yea, it kinda is." She kissed her teeth and sat back up.

"I just can't stop- I mean, is he in a relationship with her-"

"Nu-uh! Stop right there!"

"Bella-"

"No, Amelia. Now, why don't you just ask him?"

"Are you crazy?! He was so mad when she called he didn't speak at all until we got here- even then he just went straight to his study and hasn't been out since! That was three hours ago!"

"Okay. I see your point.."

"Yeah well I better go to bed." I said and stood up after a huge yawn had escaped my mouth.

"Night night- oh and don't forget, you have a doctor's appointment tomorrow."

"I won't, goodnight." I gave her a quick kiss on the cheek and got out of the room.

You know what? let me check on Alexander real quick...

"Alexander?" I called after softly knocking on the door and entering his study.

As I had expected, he was working. You heard that right. He was working. On a Friday night- not to mention it was the day we came back home. Isn't he tired? I mean- he's the one that was driving.

"Hmm?" He hummed in response but didn't bother looking up from his laptop.

"Isn't it.. isn't a little late for you to be working-"

"Amelia-"

"I mean, you did drive-"

"Amelia-"

"And you should probably get some rest-"

"You're not my wife so stop acting like it god damnit!" He suddenly yelled and looked up at me- a flash of regret crossing over his eyes but didn't bother acting on it, instead, he looked back down at his laptop and continued typing, ignoring my presence all together.5

I- you know what? Never mind.

I turned around and walked out of the room without saying another word.

I should have known better than to- no. I didn't do anything wrong. I shouldn't be beating myself up for getting yelled at- I mean, come on Amelia! You're better than that! He's the one that should be beating himself up- he shouldn't have yelled at me in the first place...

Whoever this Jessica person is -whether she makes him angry or not- has been on his mind for hours. Who is she?

I'm not even go there right now, I'm honestly too tired to.

If he doesn't think or see me as his wife, what's the point of sleeping in the same bedroom? In the same bed? what's the point of sharing the same bathroom?

Am I overexaggerating? Maybe. Should I sleep in a different bed every time Alexander does something like this? No. Yes he was wrong for what he did but being a coward doesn't make me feel all that better either.

I pulled back the covers and climbed into bed, the coolness of the sheets immediately melting away the tenseness of my body. My mind went blank and sleep overclouded all my senses as soon as my head hit the pillow.

***

As expected, when I woke up there was no sign of Alexander anywhere in the room. Today was Saturday so there was no work but I wouldn't be surprised if he did go anyway.

I had a doctor's appointment scheduled for today at noon and it was currently 8 am. Might as well get some breakfast..

"You guys are already up?" I yawned and sat down next to Bella who was reading a newspaper? since when does she read newspapers?

"I just came down now and found him.. well.. doing whatever he's doing- what are you doing?" she put the newspaper down and put her intertwined fingers under chin.

"I'm making pancakes." Tony replied in a 'duh' tone and cracked- or at least tried to crack an egg on the edge of the bowl.

"That's the fifth egg you've tried to crack-"

"Making pancakes isn't easy!" He burst out like he was on the verge of tears which made Bella and I laugh. "Yeah it is, why don't you sit down and let me make them?" I stood up and took the egg he was about to crack out of his hand. "Sure." He sighed and took my seat next to Bella.

"Listen Amelia, we have something to tell you." Bella suddenly said in a serious tone. Serious Bella= I'm not gonna like this.

"What?" They looked at each other first before turning to me.

"Did you guys have se-" I whispered before I was so rudely cut off by Bella screaming 'no' like a hundred times.

"What?! Of course not! NO-"

"Okay I get it! what is it that you want to tell me?"

"I just want you to know that I still love you-"

"We're moving out- ow!" Tony yelped and rubbed the spot Bella had punched him on.

"I told you we weren't supposed to be blunt with-"

"But you were taking so long to tell her!"

"It's called being sensitive you doof-"

second. To be honest; I wanted to. I wanted to fall down to my knees and cry my guts out. I was happy for them, I really was, but I wasn't happy about the fact that I'm going to be alone. Who am I going to talk to when Alexander and I get into a fight

I did what I should do as her

"That's amazing you guys!"

happy we're moving out?" Bella asked and looked at me

"I'm happy for you."

"Wait, really?"

you guys so surprised- don't answer that..." I

shall we?" I smiled and cracked the egg perfectly into the bowl which made Tony scoff and Bella

with you guys to the hospital?" Tony asked as he

movie or two after breakfast because

"Sure." Bella answered.

all you have to say?

you want

want you

"No."

no? You

me and both looked at me like

"We're not-"

"We do not-"

I was

I- never mind..

***

Delilah said as she moved the wand around my stomach. "Would you

"Yes please-"

need to talk." Oh

"I- I'm gonna go-"

finish up here," I said and looked up at her, "whatever he wants to say can wait." I looked over at him and

me, then him the me again. "I'm so sorry Amelia." She looked at me apologetically and left the room in under

talk about?" I folded the tissue in half

tell me you had a doctor's appointment?"

come." I said nonchalantly and

And there it is.

Tony asked if he

have asked

would I

"Yesterday-"

sorry, before or after you yelled at me- oh oh I know! This morning? Oh wait, you were nowhere to be found." I know I

"I-"

get yelled at -again- for asking if you would like to come for a doctor's appointment for a child you didn't even want

on what and what not to

popped her

okay, could you please come and print

"Sure."

"Thank you."

**four hours later**

"Baby's gender?"

"Next month."

"Baby shower?"

not be having a baby shower

talked and I

having

it." She shushed

She trailed off. "So?" I asked when

I know exactly what she

she stopped and looked up at me, "you know exactly what I

"Nothing happened-"

BS and you

"I'm-"

"Lying. " Oh god.

against the bathroom wall, "something did happen but it didn't seem so big

out for

okay! calm down.. he yelled at me. See? it's in the normal so nothing

he yell at you

"Nothing big-"

"Amelia!"

fine. I asked him to go to bed since it was late -big mistake that was- and he yelled; 'you're not my wife so stop acting like it god dammit'- just the occasional

are

paper. Doesn't mean

mean a thing- then tell me why

a mistake and you know it." I rolled my eyes

than that, what did you do after

and went to bed." I shrugged and slid down to the floor when

y.. you did

walked away and went

"You didn't yell back?!"

"Nope."

"Why not?!"

what would I have said? huh? and

doesn't give him the

"I know Bella-"

did you would have put

the only one at fault here, okay? He clearly had something that

"Stop defending him!"

"Bella-"

He's in the wrong here and he should

what? he should apologize. What he

She scoffed and rolled her

what the worst part of all of this is?" I asked after a

"What?"

to come up and spoil everything- it's a never

going

"I don't know-"

burst out like a lightbulb had lit up over

"And what's that?"

"You seduce him-"

that got to

doesn't but think

about what Bella?! There is nothing

"He'll tell you everything-"