One Sided Love novel Chapter 11

ALEX

Its almost a year ... a fucking year when I lost my wife.... she should be here celebrating her daughter birthday but destiny has other fucking plans for us.... and there was Kate... fuck last time I make out with her n I still can taste her .. her pale skin n those pink nipples damnnn she was fucking hot lieing there....I try to ignore her afterward but today she looks exceptionally pretty with her pink flowery dress n curly long black hair gives me a feelings which I dnt want to have .... I try to block her image by getting drunk ... then I felt some one was knocking my door... who the hell can be... when I open my bedroom door it was kate standing there.... I was speechless for a moment I thought im dreaming but when she talked I came back to my senses 

Kate said ' Alex ...I just dropped emma n put her in bed ...your mother told me that you looked tense so I thought to check on you ' 

she was not looking at me ... she seems to be very nervous around me n why wont she.... because I always say shitty things to her without thinking n she said she drop emma... emma fuck what kind of father im how can I forget about my daughter who is the only thing that keeping me alive ...

I said ' I fine just little tired come inside I was just drinking .'... she followed reluctantly n 

say ' I think I should go you must be tired n im too so bye'

I hold her hand n said ' I told you to say ... I know you hate me but please I need some company'.... 

She replied ' alex I never hated you how can you think something about this... I just dnt want to upset you more '

'haha upset my whole life is upset pretty girl n you r not the reason' I said to her

'im sorry you felt this way but you have to move on for emma sake and you have to find your happiness in your life ' she said to me while sitting with me

I replied ' fuck my happiness ... I dnt know how to do this n I feel so much anger towards everyone that I can't control my self ' I say to her