One Sided Love

Kate 

I was so tired of this morning sickness that I have to take a leave from the office ... n now im sitting In the floor of bathroom throwing all the content eaten in the breakfast.... doctor said it is normal during few months ... after I told Alex about my pregnancy n his reaction left me so shaken that my health was decreasing day by day .... I seriously meant that I will have the baby in any case but after Alex words keep surrounding in my mind but if the my baby is left like me deprived of father love.... what if my father blame me for all this n my little baby... n how will I survive the expense .... my job is good but I already have lots of expense..the apartment rent... my student loan since my father start saying I should work on my own to achieve higher studies...n now my medical bills... I know I Will manage some how but till when I don't know..

I was so sleepy right now I thought I should take a nap... I don't know how long I slept what I feel some one was knocking my door loudly ... I see the time its 8o'clock pm who it can be.

I looked my appearance in the mirror n boy I looked like a zombie but I don't care about that some one was very eager to meet me

I open the door to see who it is ... I saw it was none other than Alex.

He said 'Are you ok? What the hell is wrong I went to your office n they say you r sick n taken a leave n then I was fucking knocking your door for half an hour but you never replied I become sick by worrying'

I looked him with shocked ' Alex im ok ...but whats wrong... is emma ok... oh my god tell me emma is ok'

Alex relax me' emma is fine she is with my mother '

I replied 'then I why are you here'

'can I come in ' he said

I replied ' ok...but if you here to change or in your way to warn me about my baby then you can go from here'

come in or not... I have a

that he enter my

thought your father might

father so yes im living here... alex plz talk what ever you r here for ...

the thing is after you exploded the pregnancy bomb on me my parents heard everything about us n they want

alex ... yeah may be im hallucinating ... no he

marry you ... when you.. I mean we don't

 ' I know it is true what love has nothing do with this marriage ... I still love emily n no one can take her place but I have think about this a lot n come to the conclusion in order to avoid any mess n controversy we should

... n for your mess you don't worry about it at,all I won't

you should be happy about it... n I really don't care what do you feel... I have to marry you otherwise my father will disown me n emma ... I don't care about money but I do care about my daughter future her needs ...n marrying you is one option... n it is good for you too.... if you want this child to live a comfortable n honorable life unlike you who always

my baby future ..... but still marrying him well not solve my problems .... but it looks like it will solve Alex , my precious emma future n my baby future too.... look like I

baby .... then why you r

still not going to accept you my wife n this baby my child .... I will give you n this baby a name, honor, n every luxury of life but except my heart n love ... those only belong to emma n

start crying ' how can you say something like that I get it you don't love me ... then don't but plz don't

change when he looked at me but with that he again become a

you loved emma n wants her to have a good future n

knows how much i loved emma n will do

... i will