One Sided Love

Kate:

Rachel was gone even mother was gone to ... it was my father who has met his old business representative n stopped for a long chat ... now he was in emma room saying goodbye 

I said ' Daddy do you want to have a cup of coffee '

He looked uncomfortable n said ' no I think I shall go now ... say bye to Alex from my side'

I just nodded n picked up his coat n give it to him... then all of a sudden Martha came with worried expression n said ' kate... oh god kate... Aria is burning n she is so dizzy ... we have to take her to the doctor'

When martha said Aria I didn't stop for a moment n run to my baby... when I hold her she was burning .... I started crying n said ' my baby... oh god... martha bring my car keys'

I hold aria n run to my car but my father stopped me n said ' I will take you to the hospital ... you r not in a position to take her ... I will stay with you'

I just nodded n sat in daddy car n run to hospital

The doctor checked Aria n said they have to keep her over night to control her temperature n check her vitals ... a small baby having this kind of trouble is too much for me.

I was sitting in the sitting area... when my father sit with me he give me coffee... I can only take two sips but my mind was going to Aria... I started sobbing quietly .... I can't lose her... she is my everything.... what kind of mother im ... my baby has been neglected n unloved by her father n now I also neglected her..I was now fully crying ... then my father awkwardly put his hand on my shoulder... n then I realized that for the first time in my life my father was supporting me... I can't control myself n hugged my father for the first time... he was still but I dont care ... I said ' Thank you so much daddy .... I can't tell you how scared I was .... im so happy you are here'

He just stand,still n said ' its nothing.... hmmm... you should probably called Alex'

Alex... shit .... I dont even realized that in all I forgot to inform Alex.... I picked my phone... but I stop when I start recalling all those events when he stated he is not interested in Aria...

I replied ' Daddy ... Alex is busy..n his time will be wasted here'

Father looked annoyed ' his child is in hospital n he can't leave his work? '

I replied ' Daddy you of all people should know that when life gives you something unwanted .... then you don't care for that thing.... and in this case Aria is unwanted' 

Daddy looked embarrassed... n said nothing

I said' Daddy you should go... mom will be waiting for you .... im here for Aria'

said' You want me to leave you alone ... especially in

but still thank you for your support I will never forget that'

said ' I will

my phone rings it was Alex

the hell Kate.... where are you im here worried sick.... how can you leave emma

emma alone but not that Aria

I left emma alone n why I hurriedly leave the house..... Alex.... (I can't control my tears') Alex Aria is in hospital ... she was burning in fever .... doctors said they have keep her in hospital for a night...

for a moment n said ' shit Kate... how

hanged

ringing again n again

was ignoring

Daddy... you should go ... mom might be in worry why you are

looked uncomfortable to leave me... n I found that to be so comforting that he felt something

  Alex

saw kate sitting quietly n looking so tired ... I reached her n

tiredly looked ' Alex

 ' I left

... I said '' hows ... I mean what

she is ok.... her temperature is little control... they are keeping her overnight to check if

be ok n happy the way she is always.... the flashes of Aria came

you know I over reacted... when martha told me.... I become worried... n you know when I try to stay compose then I say something which I don't meant.... n im not only talking about the phone... Im sorry I say

was... Im so tired... uff I know you r sorry but I

let it out... just let it out.... im there for you...i know im an asshole.... I wished you have told me in time then I can there for you ...

time that you don't want to do anything with Aria.... so I thought its will

was has cracked sound n it was my heart... fuck..... I know I do things which no one deserve but I can be that insensitive I

I can't loved Aria.... but she's a child ... n I might care for her...I might let her down in the future .... not give that kind of attention n love a father's should give her to .... nor never get closed to her .... but in a,difficult time im going to stand

 ' why can't you try to love her once ... she loves you n I can tell you that... then why can't

I can't fucking do that.... you know Emily loves emma so much that sometimes she never let her have me .... even when she start working she put her in daycare that provides 24/7 information what n where is emma.... she let me promised her one of the days that if something happens to her I have to loved emma more than anything in this world... n I can't for one minute neglect her nor give priority to someone else.... Im just made that promised to myself after emliy death that no one can take place emma nor I will make emma feel neglected.... I know

make sure to never neglect her not because of any promises but because she is my daughter n I loved her alot but I hope one day you understand no one takes anyone place ... cause God expand your heart