One Sided Love

  Alex

I was looking at my computer screen but my mind was going again n again towards Aria n her beautiful sad blue eyes identical to mine ... fuck.. those words she innocently said to Kate breaks me... she still remember those word's that I harshly told her in Emma birthday regarding touching emma toys ... it totally want kill myself... A child should not feel this but fuck im bastard who is bound with promises... n selfishly don't want to get hurt again.

I was already feeling like a cruel asshole when I lashed on Aria in Emma birthday... I should have ignored those pity kids issues like my mom said but when I saw emma tears ... my mind take back to Emily that how much disappointed she will be n how my emma is feeling so low... but now I realized everyone was supporting emma n degraded Aria badly who don't deserve such treatment but I have to do this otherwise she will get attached n hurt more.... I know god will never forget things im doing with her n kate ...n I deserves hell for it but Im helpless.

I went to check outside wheres everyone I saw emma was watching cartoons... I went to emma room hopefully kate will be there.... since both girls are sharing same bed ...I went to room when I heard kate soft voice 'hey baby don't be sad ... you will get your butterfly cake n gifts .... but what I have told you about birthday parties'

Aria pout n said ' that birthday party not important but people love for you is'

Kate said ' yes.. n every one loves you me ... emma your grandma grand pa.. martha... n bella too... so many people loves you... so what we don't have a party but we have these people in our life'

Aria sadly said' but I dont have daddy ... daddy dont loves me... so he no come to my birthdays...'

Aria gasped n I hold the wall for a support ... fuck... I felt some one punched me in my guts

Kate said ' ARIA... who say that he loves you a lot... don't say that again otherwise it will hurt me n daddy too... he is just so busy... n look he give you a beautiful room this home n other things .... if he doesn't loves you why he give it too you'

Kate try to explain her with unimportant thing... of course these things doesn't define love... but kate is different so always try to find good in other people no matter how many time people have hurt her.

nodded n replied ' hmm yeah... so he loves

more n went in

my thoughts n I bearly eaten five bites ...kate asked that I didn't like the dinner ... I said its

coffee n doing other chores ... I went to girls room

'ok time to bed.. tomorrow is school so

emma in bed n kissed her forehead n say ' good night baby

n said '

was looking at me behind her blanket ... like she was expecting I

to but I stopped n said '

become sad n she said ' good night

I feel like biggest loser

kate come after five minutes n said 'hi ..you are fine? you look

 yeah just little tired of this work load

you just cut some work load ... forget it im going to give you back message

' yeah I always feel good when

are so bad now relax so I can give you