Please Love Me

A week has passed since my birthday. I’m still processing my confession to Enzo. I also remembered that Zion was the one who took me home. I remember his confession. He told me he loves me...and I feel bad. I really do. It’s possible that Zi is feeling what I am feeling along the way.

All the heartaches..

All the jealousy..

All the Pain..

But that was unintentional, just like Enzo, it’s not my intention to hurt anyone. But he promised me. And I held on to that promise. We are not aware that we are hurting each other along the way. I need to stop!we all need to stop.

I stood up to my things in the closet. I stopped when I saw a gift inside the I smiled bitterly.

I don't know how Enzo put it in. Well, he has access in our house since he’s welcome here.

I sat on my bed to open it. I smiled when I saw i huge stuffed toy bear what is holding a huge strawberry in its hands.

I can’t help but to feel sand as I look at the bear. One fucking week! I have no news from the outside. I did not dare to go outside my room nor did I accept any visitors. I turned off my phone and deactivated all of my social media accounts. I immediately wiped my tears when someone knocked.

Tricia?" asked Mom and

they always ask since

"I'm fine.."

on my bead when they sat down. I can’t look at them because I feel ashamed. Dad’s phone rang so

What a deafening silence…

Mom’s stares

so I looked

My voice is shaking as I

know Tricia... I know you guys since you were

but I failed. I don't want to ruin

supporting my back

my life, I’ve got high grades! I became a valedictorian! I can formulate solutions to every math problem, but why can’t I solve this? When it comes to this, i’m a failure..." I

grown up..." Mom said seriously. A small smile crept on her lips. "I know that someday, you would feel that kind of pain. I won’t judge ENzo because I know him...I know that it hurts, but it’s a sign of your love. I know Enzo loves you, maybe

why I love my mom so much. She never judge me.. She supports me,

plan

happened, I don’t know if I can still face them.

painful thing is losing myself in process of loving him. I

what Iv'e realized these past