Savior Of Her Heart

Anupama's POV:-

Do you ever feel like that your life is not worth living? Do you ever think that you are the real reason behind everyone's sorrow? Do you ever see so much hate in other people's eyes that you want to kill yourself?

I did and still have the same feeling about myself. I am the reason that my mother is not with us anymore. I am the reason why Baba has become so distant with everyone and also I am the one who brings misfortune to this family. I am not worth living but I am so much of a coward to take my own life by myself so like always I will go with the flow to see how much more is there to witness in the future. It's not like that anything can change in a span of time because it's me we are talking about who has never gotten her father's love or appreciation for a second in her life.

From childhood onwards, I have been trying to remove the tag of worthless from my head but it seems like every time I fail to do that. I have always tried my best to make everyone happy yet there is something where I am lacking behind. However, this time I will be doing the right thing to bring happiness in my father's life. I know how much his company means to him so if by sacrificing myself can bring bliss for him, then I am ready to do that. I just hope that now I can have a little place in his heart.

It's been already four days since Baba has announced my marriage with Mr. Bianchi which will be happening in the upcoming week. Today is Bijaya Dashami, the day when Goddess Durga will be returning to her house with her kids. It is also the end of this festival so every one of us is very emotional and with the moist eyes, we are preparing for the day. Apart from that, the news of my marriage has already been declared to our relatives and neighbors and everyone has come to congratulate me on my new life. Although every one of us has a smile on our faces to show our happiness but in reality, there is nothing to be happy and I know it very well.

"Anu come help me," Mamoni calls out to me breaking me from my chains of thoughts. I hurriedly go to her and see that she is having trouble with preparing Khichuri (Hotchpotch) which will be served today to all the guests.

"Let me cook it Mamoni. You go and get ready. The ladies have started to come for the sindoor khela. Thakurmaa will be angry if you don't get ready in time." I tell her taking the ladle from her hand. She tries to protest but one look from me and she is out of there.

A few moments later the Khichuri is ready so I start to make Gurer Payesh ( Rice pudding with jaggery) and Labra (mix vegetable curry). After making all the dishes I ask the maids to serve them when Thakurmaa would say. After that, I reach the pandal where everyone is busy playing Sindoor Khela which is a tradition to put sindoor (vermilion) on each other face on the morning of Bijaya Dashami. One of the aunties come towards me to put sindoor on my face but I hold her hand. Everyone is shocked seeing what I have done but how can I let someone put sindoor on me after what had happened with me.

"She is not married yet Lolita didi. Then why are you putting sindoor on her face?" Mamoni asks playfully trying to ease the tension.

"So what Mausumi? She will be married in a week so she can play with us." Saying this she puts a handful of sindoor on my face while all the ladies start to laugh. I feel tears start to come out of my eyes so I run towards my room ignoring all the calling of others. I lock the door of my room and get inside the bathroom before turning on the shower. I start to rub my face with both hands trying to get rid of the sindoor.

"I need to get this off from me. It's not for me. I am a nuisance who doesn't deserve this holy thing." I mumble myself while putting some shower gel on a lofa before rubbing it all over my face and neck. Tears and the red color has already mixed but I don't care. When I feel like my skin is burning from all the rubbing, that's when I stop. After putting on fresh clothes I come out of the bathroom to see that Riya is sitting on my bed. I get startled by seeing her here because she never come here without the intention of hurting me.

"Come sit beside me, baby sis." She says sweetly but I know there is nothing sweet in her. Yet, I sit beside her. She looks at me for some time before nodding her head which confuse me not knowing what is going on her mind.

and tell him that

married to Mr. Bianchi then Baba will

you will marry the person who is mine?" She asks furiously. I lower my head

the most." She doesn't wait for any reply before storming out of the room. I try to stop her because I don't know what she is planning to do. I run behind her but I see that she is going to the pandal so I don't go after her

for safety purposes. Again, I hear my name being called so I immediately reach downstairs because I don't want Thakurmaa to get angry with me. When I get

by seeing the anger in her eyes. Although she don't let me answer before asking me about Advira

my room,"

girl." My

help but ask aloud while looking frantically at everyone but no one

mouth close. Riya go and get her." Thakurmaa replies harshly. Riya gives me a

happening in here Maa?" Baba

turn to take an important decision for my family," Thakurmaa replies. My hands start to sweat in dread because I have a feeling that there will not be anything good about her decision. I hear my baby

Thkurmaa orders and Riya put Advira in Jasmine di's arms who is still confused

who is not her by blood. That's why I want you to make a choice. You take

didon? Boro mama is already marrying her with someone whom she doesn't know and now you

know how much Advira means to our Anu, how

not going to give any explanation to anyone." Thakurmaa replies while looking at everyone. Advira is still crying but I am helpless because I can't do

I -" Jasmine di tries to say something but Thakurmaa

you or not?" Thakurmaa asks impatiently. Jasmine di looks at

take Advira with me." She