Sleeping With My Stepbrother

"I wanna break up Justin" I said

"O-oh" Justin finally mumbled after a couple of seconds, before deciding to take a seat on the swing next to me, not even caring about the fact that it was damp.

I bit my lip to stop the tears the was about to fall, but apparently my emotions had been bottled up so much, lip-biting wasn't doing anything anymore.

"Can I...can you at least tell me why?" Justin asked after minutes of silence "Was it something I did? I mean... the next time we were supposed to see each other was when I had to pick you up because we were gonna spend the weekend at the lake. Wha....what happened?"

Silence.

"Is it about the lake trip? Was that moving too fast?" Justin asked again.

It was breaking my heart to see Justin wonder if he did something wrong. He was a nice guy and he didn't deserve to think that he was the one at fault.

"It's not you, Justin. It's me" Ahh yes. The famous ‘it's not you, it's me" break up line’, "You were... a really great boyfriend. I don't want you thinking that something was wrong with you, nor that you did anything to make me break up with you."

Silence.

"It's just... I like you. A lot." I said " And that's the problem. Because I like you so much, but I'm.. in love with someone else"

Oof. Bull's eye.

Justin was suddenly nodding, like something had clicked.

"I knew something was going on" he began, and now I was confused.

"What are you talking about?" I asked, catching on with what he was talking about.

"A few nights ago, when I found you and Luke drinking at your house's mini bar" Justin said, and I began worrying.

Not because Justin just learned that I was in love with his best friend.

I was worried because he might think that having relations with my stepbrother was beyond incestuous and crazy.

But then again, I didn't really care.

"I know what you're thinking" I began

"Oh please. Don't even try to deny it" Justin interrupted "You two have been avoiding each other like the plaque all summer. It doesn't take a genius to figure out that there's something going on between you to. And that it has nothing to do with the fact that you two are step siblings as well"

"We're not even related you know" Was the only thing I could say to defend myself "I'm really sorry Justin. I know tonight wasn't what you were expecting"

"Really wasn't" Justin said sarcastically, but I chose to ignore it simply because I had just broken up with him and he had the right to be sarcastic right now.

Justin then got and up and began pacing

"Did you sleep with Luke?" Justin asked, and it took me a moment to figure out how I was gonna answer it.

"Truthfully?" I began "I had met Luke before our parents even got married. He was only supposed to be a one night stand" I smiled a bit, remembering how Luke and I met.

It wasn't the prettiest story. Hell, if I was Ted Mosby, I'd skip that part or just make up some other story as to how we met.

"But yes. I did" I continued. Justin sucked in air, and you could see he was mad and disappointed and sad.

It was a really really bad moment.

Thunder roared through the sky.

I realized that I didn't bring any umbrella with me, but at the same time I wasn't gonna bother Justin to drive me home. Not after I had just broken up with him.

"Thanks for telling me the truth. I appreciate it" Justin said, before another thunder roared through the sky, making us both look up at the now lightning-filled sky. "Do you want me to drive you back home?" Justin asked. I can't believe that he still had the audacity to ask that after I broke his heart, making my heart ache even more.

Even after getting his heart broken and after learning that I was in love with his best friend, Justin was still being a perfect gentleman.

God, I am officially the worst person on earth right now.

"No. I'm good. I need air" I told him as I wiped the tear off my face and began walking away without hearing another word from him.

of me hoped that Justin wasn't that dumb to follow me, but the other part of me, the asshole part of me, that

nor did I know where I was going. I just needed some goddamn air.

buy a pack of cigs, and when that was unsuccessful, I just bought a large cup of slurpee and sat by the parking lot

by looked at the crying girl sitting at the parking lot gulping

I was just sitting there. I also didn't

I was done crying already, but my tears had temporarily stopped and my slurpee was already gulped down so I left and walked

any more cliche, I felt the the first drop of rain on

dumbest part in

was the part where I knew it was going to rain, but I didn't bother flagging a cab or riding

No.

home. In the dark, without

to walk, not even bothering to at least stop

I was way too in the middle of the road, I moved closer to the side walk and mindlessly continued walking to where I was hoping would lead back to

heard the car stop behind me

something bad actually happens to me and I get kidnapped and thrown into the back of

part? I didn't feel danger. In

Luke shouted behind me, along with the squishy sound his

after what just happened with Justin, and given what had happened earlier, Luke was definitely the last person I

Luke's shoes now sounded like he was moving in a faster pace, until I felt his hand grab my arm, and I was soon face to face with

said, definitely furious af, before he began pulling me.

of course, the stubborn side of me decided to pull

By now, even with the umbrella, we were getting wet with the pulling game we were doing. And no, it's not the

going home" Luke said agressively as he gripped my arm tighter, and after a

soaked because of how wet I am, but mostly I wasn't thinking straight. I

entire 10-minute car ride

stopped in front of our house, nobody dared to move. And the only sound that could be heard was the hard rain

sure that he wasn't making any move, I decided to

happened?" Luke asked, breaking the silence, stopping me from opening

I sighed.

it." I said in a low

know what else to do because apparently you dumped him. That was three hours ago, by the way. And I spent those three hours looking for you, instead of doing something more important stuff like do a final run down of my things before I leave tomorrow. You're lucky

at Luke, and even though the only light source was the dimly lit

He was about to leave tomorrow for England and here I was, just straight up stressing him out than he

more seconds looking at him, and it was

you even care?" Was apparently what rolled out of my mouth. As soon as the last word left my mouth, Luke's

deep breath. Steam was probably

before letting out sarcastic laughs. "Mu god. I cannot believe

more frustrated as he ran his fingers over his

one of the people I am extremely close with, and you're asking me why I care" said in a loud tone, as if he was trying to have a loud contest with the rain. Of course. That was all I was gonna be. One of the people he was extremely close with

showing your "care" huh?" I began "Luke, you have been avoiding me

Silence

thing I know, not only are you avoiding me, but every time I ask you about it, you shut me down completely" I began "I've been trying to reach out to you and wanted to hang out with you before you left for god knows how long until we see each other again, and all you did was

"Kyls. You don't understand—"

you giving me even the slightest explanation. I will never understand" and

just let me cry inside his car. He didn't

I wiped the tears off my face and

was quick enough to lock the car,

as soon as I turned

I demanded

you up in the pouring

and I told

walk alone at night to sulk. Why did I have to pick you up in the pouring rain in the dark

staring into each other, waiting for

was going to

once again and looked down before we both fell in silence again, and the only sounds heard was the now even louder

as I glanced at him, he was looking at me like he was bottling

was, but... I guess he already had an idea"

breaking the silence. I

the sadness in my voice began to fill the

Luke said "Please"

began searching his eyes. He was begging