The Educator

I let the cold water wash the heat off of my body. I am fully naked under the shower head. My heart was beating rapidly, as if I ran a marathon, as if I was waiting for an exam grade, as if I was waiting for my pregnancy test to come out negative. My hands rest on the glass wall to help me up. My chest and collarbones are still red from the hot coffee.

What just happened? Were we about to have sex? Was he about to kiss me? Maybe it wasn’t as I am thinking it is. Hi hands touched the underside of my thighs. It felt so good. Thinking about what happened made my legs weak and made me wet, aside from the shower. The way he held me, as if no other man held me before. I touch my lower part and I was slippery down there.

Again, what happened? Jesus, could it happen again? I want it to happened again. It felt so good. So different that it is making me light headed. Do I want it to happen again? I felt him hard against me. The things I could do and the things I could let him do to me.

No!

Yes!

What?

I turn off the shower and I could still feel my burnt area. I pull out my soothing cream and rub it carefully. I wear a robe carefully so that by morning, my skin would have already recovered from the trauma. I walk out of the bathroom and I see Elliot standing by the door. He’s wearing just the bottoms of his pajamas, his lower torso a red, trauma red.

have anything to

the cream from the vanity of the bathroom. I walk up to him and place small dots on the red areas and carefully spread the cream. We are both silent and I feel like I was spreading the ointment on him for hours. I could see the quick rise and fall of his belly and I wondered my eyes to his upper torso, his chest was also rising and falling quickly, which to me, means

“I don’t know what happened downstairs” he mutters.

sorry” I say quickly. We are both silent again. Dead air consuming us both and neither of us attempting to leave. I swallow, clear my throat and sit down on the edge of the bed. Elliot is just

to him. He tilts hi head to the side, purposefully touching my nose with his. I wrap my arms around his neck and I pull him close. We indulge ourselves with a wet but passionate kiss. His hands find their way underneath my thighs and pulls them up, he wraps my legs around him

didn’t stop him because it felt so good. It felt right. We’re married anyway. He pushes my back against the wall of the room and upon bumping, we manage to fall on the fall without feeling anything but excitement. He pushes my robe back, exposing my bare skin. He starts touching

it still hurts” I whisper. I pull my robe

okay. I’m sorry” he says, “I’ll

closes the door behind him. I flop back on the bed, my legs open and my lower body craving for more. I wanted something

I want more.

look over to my side and I see my phone. I reach for it and I start messaging