The Girl He Craves novel (Sophie and Aiden) novel Chapter 53

Sophie’s pov

“What?” I breathed out, confused. I was a mistake?
What we did was a mistake?
There was a huge blow to my chest as I felt those words and my fingers clutch the material of my blouse where I could feel my heart beat erratically.

My bottom lip wobble a bit ad I stare at him.

He’s not looking at me anymore as he fixes his suit.

I’m the only dumb one still there with my mouth parted and my skirt still hunched up.

I’m the only one who got used, yet again.

And I had stupidly fallen for his charms.

I stupidly made my heart choose only for him to disappoint me yet again.

Anger starts to pull at my sadness taking out every string until that anger consumed me.

My lips curl back into a sneer.

“You’re still that huge asshole.

Why am I even surprised?” I slide off his desk, quickly fixing my skirt.

My panties were obviously ruined so there was no going back for them.

Aiden lifts his head, those storms shooting through me like lightning.

“Watch your mouth.” He snapped.

“Watch my mouth? Is that all you can say to me after three years?” I cursed myself inwardly when I felt the sting of incoming tears in my eyes.

Stay firm, Sophie.

He doesn’t deserve your tears anymore.

His eyes grow colder, making my insides feel cold.

I’m fixing my blouse and my skirt because I don’t want to walk the walk of humiliation out of his office.

“What more do you want from me, Sophie? Another fuck?” Aiden sneers under his breath while fixing his tie.

His hair is a mess from his hands running through it over and over when he told me I was a mistake.

I flinched at his words which slapped me brutally across my face.

I want to hurt him too.

Hurt him with my words the same way he has hurt me.

But I can’t bring myself to.

Because I’m still in love with him.

And I can’t hurt the father of my child.

Ash…..

Ash wasn’t a mistake.

I don’t want Aiden’s cruel words to scar him too.

I refuse to let Aiden hurt him just as he was hurting me now.

I had made the right choice after all.

“You’re being cruel Aiden.” I shake my head, trapping my lower lip between my teeth.

Maybe if I bite into my lip hard enough I’ll feel enough pain there to distract me from the pain in my chest.

“Three years Aiden.

Three long years and you’re still so bitter towards me.” I let out shakily.

Aiden ground his teeth, his jaw popping.

He was furious, that was obvious.

” What the hell did you want me to do Sophie!? Throw a fucking welcome party and hold you like the diamond that you are? Well, guess what Sophie! You’re not a fucking diamond and those three years without seeing you, touching you, feeling you, were the best years of my life.” He seethed, taking a powerful step forward.

Tears are already rolling down my cheeks and I’m shaking while a few sobs slip past my lips.

“You said you missed this Aiden.

You said you missed me.” | whispered, my chest hurting with every breath I try to pull into my lungs.

Aiden’s lips curl cruelly and his next words are just as cruel.

“A guy says what a girl wants to hear to get in between her thighs.

Did you think you were that special for me to miss you, Sophie? All you have ever brought into my life was chaos.

Nothing good ever happens when you’re here.” He says lowly, bending his head down so that our eyes are leveled.

I’m breathing heavily, but not in desire like earlier.

I’m breathing heavily because I can’t seem to breathe properly as his words stab through my heart
“Fucking you was just to remind you of how easy you still are after all these years.

I can only imagine how many guys passed there whilst I was rotting in jail.” He snarls, pinning me down with daggers of fury.

I staggered back at his words, my eyes widening.

Did he really think I was a whore? “You’re so cruel, don’t say things you know nothing about,” I whispered.

My fingers are curling into fists at my side, my lips wobbly.

I want to bawl my eyes out because his words are hitting me painfully.

His eyes scan my face and his lips curl into an even nastier snarl.

“Haven’t you heard? I’m a murderer remember? A devil.

So what do you expect? For me to be nice to you Sophie? Murderers aren’t nice Sophie, they’re cruel.”
“And besides, if you really were that special I wouldn’t have fucked so many girls after you.

And they were more….delicious.” He smirked, his eyes holding no emotion in them.

I shake my head unable to take being in his presence anymore.

I need air.

I need to get out of here as soon as possible.

“Fuck you Aiden,” I whispered.

“Did I not just do that? And I sure as hell don’t want to do it again.” He sneers, rolling his eyes over me in disgust.

I bit my bottom lip, nodded, and picked up my heels.

I looked at him one last time before saying.

” This is the last time I ever let my guard down when it comes to you again.

And I mean it this time Aiden.” | step away from him and began to walk away.

I’m forcing myself to not crumble before him, to not cry.

I didn’t want to be that girl anymore.

I didn’t want to be that same girl from high school anymore.

I had to be strong for Ash, because who would if I wasn’t?
It was clear Aiden would not like the fact he shared a part of him with me.

And though guilt was eating me alive for those three years for not telling him about my pregnancy, about Aiden, now I realized that perhaps it was a good thing I didn’t.

My hands on the door froze when his next words reach my ears before I opened the door.

“Running away is what you’re good at Sophie, so no surprise there either.”
He was right, I always run away.

But I sure as hell won’t listen to his cruel words anymore.

I refuse to crawl back to him.

Not this time.

He’s causing too much damage.

I opened the door while staying muted and walked out with my heels in my hand.

I don’t close the door behind me and don’t bother staring at Noel who was glaring at me while I walked past.

Pressing the button on the elevator I stepped into the lift when the doors slid open.

A part of me wished he’d come running to me and apologize.

Tell me he didn’t mean any of what he just said.

But I knew that was only wishful thinking.

Aiden didn’t care about me, and once again like that same high school girl three years ago, I fell into his trap and let him crawl back into my heart.

Only for him to shatter my hopes.

I looked at my reflection on the elevator doors and cringe.

I looked like someone who had just gotten fucked.

Aiden’s pov I’m tugging at my hair, seething as I glared at the door she walked out of.

Somewhere in the back of my mind, I want her to walk back into the office.

To apologize for not calling me when I was rotting in jail.

For moving on without an issue.

paced my floor, snarling under my breath as I throw the files
on my desk and the phone Noel bought recently.

That’s not enough.

I ripped the computer off my desk and fling it over to the wall.

It’s destroyed in seconds, making a huge crashing sound that had Noel running into the room.

“What happened sir “Get the fuck out!” | barked, turning to glare at her.

She squirms out of the room like her ass was lit on fire.

“Damn Sophie Bell)” | growled under my breath as I paced the floor.

Kissing her wasn’t supposed to happen.

Fucking her wasn’t supposed to happen.

I had let my guard down.

groan passing my hand down my face in frustration.

Why did she have to taste so good and feel so good? She even tastes and feels even better after those three years.

God, Sophie was messing with my head.

This wasn’t supposed to happen.

I’m itching to go after her and pull her back into my arms.

But instead of doing that, I march over to the door and slammed it shut.

“Fuck this.

Fuck her and fuck what I’m feeling.

I’m over her.” Yeah sure you are, my conscience mocked me.

As soon as your cock dipped into her pussy, you knew you were yet again, a goner.

“Shut the fuck up.” I sneered, kicking my door.

I can’t believe Sophie had me fighting with my own head.

I’ve been over her for years.

I no longer love her.

She’s nothing to me but a pawn.

I just want revenge, that’s all.

She’s nothing.