Too Beautiful for the Alpha

After wandering around for nearly an hour, I ran into the border and told a guard that I had gotten lost. After convincing him that James is my Mate, he led me back to the pack house. Now we wait standing at the door for someone to answer. Thankfully, Gail opens up and looks at me, then the guard. "What are you doing back so soon? I thought Theodore was taking you on a tour around the pack grounds?"

Before I can speak, the guard asks authoritatively, "You confirm that this young lady is mated to Alpha Grant?"

Gail pulls me in. "Yes, she is. You can go now. Come on."

She shuts the door and I drift into the kitchen where Theresa is. Gail follows behind me. "You're back early," Theresa comments. "Where's Theodore?"

"I left him."

Gail places her hands on her hips. "What do you mean you left him?"

"I ran from him after making his sister cry," I say and sit myself down on a stool. "I got lost. That's why a guard had to bring me back."

"You made his sister cry?"

I sigh and turn to face them. "His sister was James'...lover. I just wanted to talk to her, but she started yelling at me, saying she loved him, that I took him away from her and shouted for me to leave, so I did. I don't know. I panicked."

"Now why would you go and talk to her in the first place?" Gail asks, walking around the counter.

"I wanted answers from her, and I got them, but now I want to give it all back. It was better when I didn't know."

Gail says genuinely, "Some things just need to stay in the past, dear."

I nod and slip off of the stool. "I need to think things over."

imagine what it would feel like to love someone one day and

couldn't imagine James abandoning me for someone else now, right

normal love with normal pleasures, I want the exclusive one, the one that's exclusive to James. I want the deeper, more engulfing love, the love that brands my heart and makes my toes curl. Noah would have never made me happy because I want

crave

for Julianna's diary but promptly remember that I had finished it. I'll have to grab the next year's from the blocked-off room, but I'll ask James

signs and convincing myself that I don't act the same way. I'm waiting for

least he would have distracted me for a few hours with training grounds and meeting people and housing. That sounds better than laying in my bed until another chance at establishing a position comes to me. If I'm going to be mated to an Alpha, I may as

me and stare ahead at his two large ones. I hear Gail and Theresa downstairs in the kitchen, so I begin my act towards them, playing Claire. She's quiet and stealthy, so I sneak down

James would welcome her with some charming or dark look and she'd climb onto the bed, so

I have the power.

bed that is my bed, and he'd near me, the woman he'd serve until he is forgiven. That's what I'm doing here, right? Waiting until he makes up for all

with lustful eyes like a fresh kill. I'm served on a silver platter, aren't I? Untouched. I can't tell myself that I'd preserved myself for him,

He must love that his mate is only for him and will forever be only for him. She may have had experience, but I can give him so much more. Not only will my body be his, but I'll carry his children, and

no. I am

He needs me.

stand before him. I'd climb over him and he'd ache of anticipation. James would beg for me, he'd beg for

"Rae?"

shoot open.

I immediately sit up when I see him standing before me. James watches me carefully.

thought you wanted me in here? Am I

"Of course you can be in here.

guess I can explain why