Touching the Heart of Ace

I had decided. I had to move on. Not just emotionally but physically also. What if my being not physically attracted to Tristian was because I never tried?

??He?? was different. With him there was an underlying desire to always touch him, but he started it first. In guise of bad jokes and pats, he touched me and I let him because I loved it even before knowing what love was.

Then somewhere along the way we forgot to take back our hands from the other. I wanted that feeling again. I wanted that with Tristian.

I could do this.

If I could do that with ??him?? who was not mine, I could surely do that with my boyfriend.

There was something really troubling Tristian. His work was getting more boring day by day and he was vocal about it.

Poor guy!

I had been hinting I was ??ready??. But Tristian being the gentleman, was waiting for me to make a move, which I had no idea how to.

I thought kissing on lips was a tell-tale sign. Or cuddling to a slightly erotic movie was a sign.

How would I know? The only guy who I was ever with, was kind of in a perpetual need, all the time. I could not look into his eyes for three seconds before he pounced on me and...

This was not about him.

This was about Tristian and I.

My boyfriend and I.

So, I had to make a move.

Mom knew that I had someone in my life and his name was Tristian. Jason had met him once though they could not talk because Jason was here for business, and he could not stay for long without ??him?? being so suspicious.

At least the guy at the bar was not Robbie, because if it was him, he would have made some kind of move on me, right?

Right?

Right.

It was not him.

But...

No, not him.

I was not thinking about that anymore.

About Tristian.

I had to do this on my own terms. I sighed.

Tristian was calling and a smile was plastered on my face. He was so charming and knew how to put me on good mood. The only difference between him and Jason was, I kissed Tristian on lips.

??Hey.??

??Hi. I am sorry David. Can we skip on the dinner date today???

??Okay.?? I was disappointed. This was the first time I was taking him on a date. I ordered a bouquet for him when I went to pick him up. ??May I know why???

??The meeting is going nowhere and we cannot leave until some decision is made, I am getting frustrated.?? He sighed. ??I am sorry, are you sad???

??Only a bit because I cannot take you out. Some other time then. How about I cook something fancy and we can have a home-date? I will pick you at 8.30? That okay???

??Precious, I will come to your dorm right away. No need to run back and forth. I have to go now. Like I have told you already, you have done so much for me. See you.??

He hung up before I could insist.

go shopping

it

we were staying at home, it was right time. I could feel the warmth of my

my mind on what to cook. Tristian liked... no, loved food. He would eat two portions of food easily, so

to supermarkets because

kit, which had a sample of all flavours and kinds, with one Trojan.

idea how

was working, there was no way I could face the

with a straight face. ??I bought a dildo last week and she did not bat an eye, checked the product, gave me

away popping the gum and I was choking on

Was I that obvious?

Dammit!

I hoped the blush went away. I

flashed through her

almost dropped

everywhere

??Anything else???

card without looking again. She personally bagged everything and

Thank you.?? I told her again even though I refused

could hear

tomato face. Tristian better appreciate this, or I was going to slow cook him along with the

not believe it was only two months. Well, two

each other for so long. He was my comfort. I hoped it got extended to my dreams

right. I could not put my finger on it, but something was

Or was it because he was only picking on his food? Was it because he did not smile when I handed him the flowers

was here. I should take his loneliness away the way he had tried to

not like the

we need

and took a sip of

This was that

I ignored him, I dreamt of someone else, thought of someone

you

him that my name was

It is just...?? I waited for his answer but

could try to

You are perfect. Beyond perfect. You are

you breaking up with ??perfect?? then? People do

He winced.

??It is not...??

??What is it, then???

we talk in

kicked the ??gift?? under the couch before he would notice. Of all the days, I could decide to make a move, my timing was

you because of anything you

else could I

more embarrassed than hurt. I thanked the heavens for not giving him the ??gift?? along with the

get it. I am precious, beautiful, smart, whole-package and I cook divine foods.

am sorry.?? He was so guilty.

??Spit it out.??

is someone else.?? He

Of course. Of course!

Of course.

O fucking course!

I was ashamed to say I

I nodded.

crushing on this guy for long...?? He waited for my response. I nodded encouragingly. ??... before I met you. I thought he was off-limits.?? I nodded ??... he says he wants

for

for hurting you. I thought I could let him go, but I