Undeniable Attraction

I became speechless after that, how the hell did he find out? As if reading my mind he threw the DNA test at me.

"Kel...I..." I stuttered not knowing what to say.

"You had a child for me and you never told me about it even when she was right under my nose. " he bellowed.

" I was going to tell you today." I managed to say, I felt like I'd cry anytime soon, this wasn't how I planned this to go.

"Today? Today? After she has been with me for how many months now? After how many years you were going to tell me today?" He angrily asked. I understood how hurt and angry he was, he has the right to be anyway.

"I'm sorry. I didn't know how to tell you, surely you didn't expect me to tell you immediately we met."

"Why didn't you tell me immediately you knew Shayan, why?" He shouted

"Well I was going to tell you but then you broke up with me calling me all sorts of things. You called me a cheat, a gold digger, a slut, why should I have told you about my child when you'd have doubted it." I sounded angry now, it was opening back old wounds that haven't healed.

"You could have at least told me for God's sake Shayan." He shouted, he made it sound easy.

"And you didn't think I tried? Every time I tried talking to you you'd tell me "leave me the fvck alone", "I don't want to have anything to do with you, don't you fvcking get it?" I mimicked

"Do you know how I felt each time you told me that? You humiliated me in front of everyone, I was just another one of your conquest but I was the only one who got pregnant." I said sadly.

"You could have still told me." He shouted

"Through what means exactly? You blocked me, I couldn't call or text you even when I called through other means you'd end the call. You didn't want me anywhere near you or talking to you. I know how much I tried telling you. Heck, I even went over to your place only to see you fvcking pretty Queen bee Betty and that's when I knew I had tried enough so when you ask yourself why you weren't a part of her life know it's because you pushed me out." I angrily said I hated remembering all this.

"Maybe if you hadn't cheated on me it wouldn't have happened, we could have raised her together." He said in his defence

"I never cheated on you Adrios, why do you always think that?" I angrily asked, it was time to lay every dirty linen on the table.

"There was proof Shayan, you always being with Jason, the pictures and then that morning I caught you both."

"You mean the morning you walked in on us sleeping? Nothing happened at all Adrios, how would you even think that?" It was outrageous, Jason had always been my friend before Kel, I knew he got jealous but not to thinking and believing I'd cheat on him.

" You were always with him, you guys were pretty close and I knew he liked you too. I'm sorry, I should have confronted you."

" So that was why you broke up with me?" I could feel all my pent up anger rising. "You thought I cheated on you, you never talked to me about it, you just concluded not even trusting me, so that's why you broke up with me, that's why you humiliated me. " My voice raised with every sentence.

He didn't even trust me at all. "You didn't trust me at all Kel, you still don't," I said sadly the tears spilling.

I..." He started

demoralised me Kel, I didn't have high self-esteem, you

and I let out a sardonic

said, hearing that from someone you deeply loved was crushing and then there was the pregnancy. I didn't know what to do and

never meant to hurt you." He sounded so sad right now

end you did Kel, my heart was broken beyond repair Kel, you ruined me. Sorry, can't even begin to cut it." I said calmly,

so sorry Shayan, does Evie know?" He

going to tell her tomorrow," I

of all people knew how much I wanted to be there for my child, I

when he has a child he'd devote everything to it, all his love and attention and would hate to have his child feel unwanted because that's what he feels. His father was never there for him and he wanted to be a good father to

I tried," I said and

feel bad for Evie not growing

as if I could do anything

truly I am," he said taking

thought I had forgiven him but after recalling all the past events I know I still hold a lot of things against him. I just wanted to go to my room and cry myself

and I

daughter. Goodnight." I said heading for the stairs. I

have been there

to be. You chased me out of your life but I still craved you

you think I like the way things turned

tell me. Do you think I liked getting pregnant at 18 or you think I'm proud of that? Do you think I liked losing the scholarship and not going to college, do you think I liked what I went through these last six years?" I

I had no idea."

through, all the odd things I did to survive? I was just an unnecessary burden to my parents and let's not get started on labour pain. I nearly lost my life and Evie's and on top of that, I can't have another child. Do you think that makes me happy? Do you think I like how this turned out?"

to a hug, I resisted at first

all that I put you through Shayan, I am." He sounded hurt

turned around

said going to meet her

you tell me that Kel's my Daddy?" She

so miserable. "Evie I

knew since yet you never told me... I kept

sorry Evie," I said

do that Mummy? Now I know I was just a mistake." Her words burnt my heart, hearing her say all that crying

Evie no, you're not a

never wanted me, none of you did"