Dear Beauty
I think I lost the number of times I have sat on this very mountain, with this very book, and pen writing to you. It's been months since I've seen you.
I admit for a while I was angry, hurting, I felt as if you betrayed me. Part of me still does. At least now I know why.
A few weeks after you left I didn't see an end to this hell I was in without you. The club was divided. Some wanted you dead, others wanted you safe. But time does heal.
At first, I couldn't breathe without a thought of you. My hate and anger were all focused on you in the day and my nights were spent mourning you, hoping you would come back.
Our new president River and Killer finally stepped forward and told us the truth of why you did what you did, they also told us about the deal your cousin made with us.
Why they didn't tell us sooner I wonder.
Falon tried to rekindle our relationship once I explained to her about you and I. But then I was adamant that I was a taken man, even if you did betray me.
I guess my wounds were still fresh. And well I guess one can't rekindle something that wasn't really there.
Before you she was what I knew, but the day I met you, you were more than just knowing, you showed me feelings. You brought out things in me that I left buried deep inside. I convinced myself that you were mine.
It took me leaving my family behind to see what you were always trying to tell me.
You were never mine. We were on borrowed time. You always knew that he'd find you.
because of those chains you said that bind you
you were wasn't important but it became the most important part of why
I guess he became
figured that out, I stopped questioning things, asking myself if you were here, how would I change things. If I could
story was dying before it even began. Even if I wanted to fight, it would be a losing battle, you said so
wants you dead and I am sure wherever
don't know. Don't
like all of them, a promise to find you and protect you and that is what I
with another medal of honor for serving my country
conscience. And finally letting my feelings for you go. I'm going to move
is a continuous reminder of life. When I was younger It was a reminder to live life. When I got older I found out that life could be lived in different ways. And I am choosing to live mine without you playing a front row to
you Amariya, and you would be apart of us. You are apart of us, and like all the women in our club, I will protect you as I would them. Until I have to protect
want you to be shocked when you see
she is really something. A good woman who helped me get through losing
is mine now, and I will be claiming her as soon as I get back. I also don't want to
the others are apart of you. And so am I. You have always been a strong woman, if anybody
read this you would understand why I had to let you go. Why I can't be
beauty and a beast that
Zero
morning. Every word is
It didn't bother me one fucking