Zero and Beauty's Breath (A Satan Sniper's Motorcycle Club Series Book 3 - 4)

Since Beggar has returned, I haven't witnessed an episode.

I thought maybe she was better, now I know I just didn't want to notice.

Since our time in the barn, I have avoided her.

I knew I was going to do it, I knew that moment was a selfish part of my doing.

For that one moment I wanted to have her and I did. I walked away from her that day, moving on with Quinn.

I was straight up with Quinn that night, I told her what I did, I gave her the chance to leave me, and she almost did. But the woman had a thick fucking skin and took it in stride.

Not saying the shit between us has been a bed and fuck load of roses, she gives me shit about Beggar every time.

But I let her, Quinn is a good woman, I know this now because if she wasn't she would've confronted Beggar about it, made a scene, did something nasty, but she hasn't.

And to show my gratitude I stay away from Beggar. She is my past, and I have managed to keep it that way these last four and a half weeks.

It slipped my mind that Beggar wasn't just any woman, she was a woman with deep bone issues and I used to be one of those people who could make it stop.

This entire month I spent some much energy hating her as she glared at me whenever I stepped in the room, her eyes accusing me that I forgot that she had real-life demons.

One minute I was cursing her for wearing that tight vest that hugged her perky tits.

She only ever wore stuff that covered her neck and back, but it was always tight.

Next, I was bearing witness to the scars of a woman who made me a man and brought me to my knees.

I screamed, “Enough” and went for her, only she didn't obey like she once did.

Hannah, After and Venus all rushed to her aid in hysterics, but what stopped my feet from moving was Killer's chair hitting the ground as he pushed all the women aside and lifted her into his arms like he had all rights to her.

Soft words from his mouth to her ear as he rushed off with her, was what she listened to, what calmed her.

Yet, It didn't stop me from following him with the girls right on my tail.

Now it is an hour later and we're sitting in Killer's room.

The black blinds are drawn, as After sits huddled in the corner on the carpet, talking in low voices with Mercy and Spade.

Venus and Hannah are on the king-sized bed. Venus lying across the end of the charcoal comforter and Hannah perked up against the headboard and two pillows reading her textbook.

sitting back-to-front on the study chair by the door, looking at Beggar's peaceful form as she sleeps in

safe in my mind but it is there-Her and I. This woman makes

tortured a million times over

ever walk away from Beggar, the one woman who made me feel- I can't.

I didn't get it, if he

never understands why he does

it feels like she locks this rope around my chest and

almost trapped, and I hate this fucking

get up and pull the door open, high-tail it out of the room as her soul hums

sense as I rush down the stairs, straight to the

up three chairs on the left, as I go around the bar, grab a bottle of Jack off the shelves on the wall and a glass

in to the glass until it is full, then chuck it

and After will be joining you. I

keep my mouth shut, because what the

is moving in or has already. Any day now he'd be claiming

glass as Whisp starts talking about her assignment

she doesn't even have to be in the room. And it honestly

enemy is my enemy and soon I would need to face them both when he returns from his stay with my dad. It won't

I finish

I SEE Quinn's smiling face on the screen and swipe the

eyes who

gotten out and with all the deaths lately it isn't advisable but I got this work function

I close my eyes listening to it, knowing that deep inside I know it isn't the voice I want to be

fill in for Beggar, truth is, no woman can take her place, just like no woman can hurt me like she can. And I won't let it happen. It is time I man up and I know what I

send one of the girls to pick you up, not gonna make

tonight I am sure

“Sure, be careful.”

“Later.”

the trio who were no

eyes pinned on Whisp who is the only one of the three

Killer questions me in that tone he uses when he is pissing me off as he sips

asses didn't even invite me, where's the love,” Spade announces breaking my stare off

it as my queue to

down and have a beer with me, had one fuck up of a day, but got news about a couple who's been staying 'round town,” Spade says, and I grab five cold ones for all of us before rounding

brother got news I need

twist the