Love Aint Always Pretty
Chapter 58: 58 Quatervois
Quatervois
- a crossroad; a critical decision or turning point in one's life.
Origin: French
58
NICK'S POV
SEVEN YEARS AGO
I ran to them and tried to hold Catherine as she groans for pain. I shot her. I'm crying hard and there were more blood. So much blood. Catherine's blood stained her dress as it runs down on my hands.
"Call for help! Call for help!" I yelled at Hans.
Hans stands away and quickly pulled out his phone. I'm shaking. I'm shaking as I hold Catherine on my arms. She smiles weakly as she squints her eyes cos of the pain.
"Catherine.... I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry." I repeated the same exact words.
"Shhh... It's not your fault Nick. Don't... Arghh.. Don't blame yourself." Catherine says while grunting.
She wipes my tears. "It's not your fault love."
I shake my head in disagreement.
"I'm sorry." I cried.
"My dad won't let me tell you this... But Nick... Y-you're a father now." She holds my shaking hand then placed it on top of her bump.
"This is your baby." She says.
She smiles while tears were crawling out from her eyes. "Our baby."
My head bent down and more tears were coming out from my eyes. I hate myself. I hate myself for what I did.
"If I don't survive..." Catherine says with such shakiness in her voice.
"Don't say that." I begged.
She smiled weakly. "Please... Please save him Nick. Save our baby. Save him for me Nick." She says while crying.
"Promise me you will." She takes a grip on my hand.
I nod and kissed her forehead as I hold her close to my chest.
I shot Catherine.
I shot Catherine.
I put our baby in critical condition.
"Live for me. Live for me and our baby Catherine. I need you. I need both of you. Please live for me. For us. Please. I'm begging you please stay." I kiss her hand.
She smiles and nods. "I will."
As soon as help came, I went with Hans in the ambulance and both of us neither talked to each other. When we arrived at the hospital, I was still holding Catherine's hand while she fell unconscious. I would always kiss her hand and my tears just won't stop from falling. I'm so scared of what I have done. I don't want to lose her. I don't want to lose out baby.
"Catherine please be okay. Catherine. Catherine you promised me." I cried.
My hands were still shaking while I hold her hands close to my lips. My lips are trembling too. I kissed her knuckles as my tears were streaming down my face. My tears are just unstoppable. Catherine was unconscious now. She went unconscious during the drive. My heart is racing. Fear is gathering inside my body. I'm scared. I'm so scared of losing her. Hans was also crying but he hasn't talked to me during the entire drive to the hospital.
"Sir I'm sorry but you can't come through this door. Sir please step back." The nurse said to me as he pushed me away.
I ran my fingers through my hair and pulled my hair back. I'm so mad at myself. I shot her. I almost put her to death. Oh god please save Catherine and save my son. Please save our son. Suddenly, I see Alec from the corner of my eyes who ran towards me and Hans.
as soon as you texted me. Where's Catherine?" Alec asked me as he placed his hand on my
I couldn't answer.
is she?" Alec asked
fucking shot her!! He fucking shot Catherine!" Hans yelled and
but Alec pulled him away from me while some female patients screamed when they saw it. Nurses and some other hospital staff ran towards us and started trying to stop the commotion cos Hans was raging his anger out at me. He tried to throw himself again at
off dude!"
something bad will happen to Catherine, I swear to god
away from here for a second.
Alec take me somewhere else cos people were looking at me. My clothes are stained with Catherine's dried blood and my hands are stained too. I'm crying too hard and my heart is hurting
Nick! God damn it Nick look at me!" Alec moved
moved to
Did you really shot Catherine?" Alec
to be
Nick! You mean to say you really wanted to kill Hans?! Are you out of your mind? Didn't you even think you'll end up in jail if you'll do it?!" Alec throws
to shut up. He paid the police
who you shot? You put Catherine in critical
was my baby, Alec." I cried for more as I covered
"W-what?"
head to Alec. "That baby inside her is mine
squat down right in front me. "It's your
tears kept falling and falling. He quickly hugged me and I fell into Alec's arms. He rubbed my spine and I just cried. I didn't care how weak I looked in front of everybody's
what to do without Catherine, man. I just don't know what to
scared Alec. I'm so
me.
••••
got back, I saw Catherine's family --
asked as tears
will. She will be ok. Your sister won't leave us." Mrs. Forster says while she kissed Jenna's
me and moved his head to where I was standing.
them. They looked at
so sorry." I
second, Mr. Forster's fist landed on my face and I almost fell on the floor. Alec catches
that's enough!" Jenna
paid for everyone to keep the case close? Did you even say you were sorry for
"You bastard!"
Forster quickly pulled himself away from me and pushed me away. The doctor stepped out of the room and my heart just feels heavier until he pulls his surgical mask down. Hans was holding Jenna close to him while Mr.
daughter?" Mrs. Forster asked with
sorry." The
No.
No!
say that!"
my god." Mrs. Forster falls onto her husband's
but... She's dead on arrival.
baby girl. My Catherine." Mrs. Forster
and it tore my heart out from my chest when the doctor said that. I killed her. I killed Catherine. I killed the
more feel my deep pain. My mind is numb but racing in circles. This isn't making any sense of what was happening. This isn't real.
daughter." Mrs. Forster cries
as she cries on
the
back up. My baby
child?"
the guts
the doctor and I don't know if I
didn't make it as well." The doctor
and just cried for more. I feel no wisp of relief as my mind drifts further and further into the abyss of complete sorrow. Catherine. My baby. My son. We were
so sorry." I
do something to you. The police
sideways. "I killed her Alec. I killed