One Sided Love

Alex

Mom try to tell me something but I don't listen anything when Helen said what kate did I become so angry how dare she disrespect my family ... but then she apologized in a way that blow my mind she said those words that I said to Shawn about her in my wedding ceremony with Emily... but if she had heard them ....she never told me .... nor she tell Emily....may be she never said it was just coincidence.... what whatever she did was wrong.... but why I felt that something else is in the story n why the fuck im feeling guilty... she deserves this.

Everyone start to leave n Mom still try to talk to me but I told her not right now.

I went to kate room but stop when I heard her crying voice I know I should go n check her... she fucking do this on her own... 

I know sleep is not coming tonight so I went to office n don't know how long I stay there...

The next morning I woke up with a headache ... I realized I slept in my office ... I don't want to go to my room that night where kate was not there.... I stop at my declaration .... sure it is my lust talking... I think so.... damn this women is making everything in my life out of control.... I know what I didi with her was down right rude n cruel.... she is my wife n I promise to respect her but fuck when Helen told that kate insulated her ... I become furious... I still can't trust her ...oh god .... may be yesterday dinner was too much 

When I was having  conversation with the gents I heard Helen angry voice... n that whole drama started.

I went to my room to have a shower.... whole house was so quite... I looked the time it was 7:45 am ... Kate woke up this time usually n make breakfast .... may be she is tired from yesterday event... who can blame her for that.... I went to take a shower n dressed in my office clothes n went to dinning room.... Emma was awake n Martha was there cooking breakfast ... I was little confused normally kate do all these breakfast stuff... is she ok?... I realized then she had an appointment yesterday where she told me to come n I rudely told her no ... she also said about doctor.. n gender of the baby...Fuck I never asked her how was her visit.... but then how to ask her when I told her im not interested...its better this way... she will not get the wrong hopes..But deep down im also wondering what is the gender... but I ignored that thought ... n have breakfast 

I asked Martha ' Wheres kate? She will not have the breakfast'

Martha gives me some sort of angry look n said ' No sir ... I have no idea... I checked her but she was in her deep sleep so I thought not to wake her... she looks very tired from yesterday dinner'

I have a feeling Martha knows about yesterday evening n my reaction ... but I choose not to answer ... but now I was worried sick that was it too much for her... everything was going ok yesterday ... hell kate makes a very good hostess accept that moment which ruined everything... I was getting ready to go to office when I can't stop myself to go to kate room n checked her... I opened her door n enter her dark room ... she was sleeping with she was not in peace she looked very tense n lost... Martha was ready she looked very tired ... I looked her teary faced n I feel so guilty ... I run a finger to her cheek n let her sleep more... n went to office..

When I was driving all this time mom was calling even I had missed call from Aunty but I choose to ignore... when I enter my office shawn was there already with a cup of coffee 

I said ' thank god ... I need this'

He replied ' welcome but I brought this for me ..but never mind'

I take a sip then I saw shawn was standing there awkwardly ... I raised my eyebrows in question

He said ' Dude I know I have no right to interfere in your life but I can't control it... but do you think kate listen our conversation about her in your wedding ceremony with Emily... because as long as I remember she said those exact word'

I replied ' I.. don't know.. may be its,a coincidence... may be its not... god knows'

He said ' why don't you ask her... cause I feel guilty... n there something else I want to tell you '

replied ' why the fuck you r guilty... it was me who said those words not you....n what else you want to talk about dude im having a

well for in instance your behavior towards kate.... I know I shouldn't interfere but you did insult her in front of everyone so I can't stop her.... Alex you do have to trust her in some

very bad feeling where it is going but I said ' what

all this... she first belittled kate n start insulting her what a lousy host kate is which I think was totally wrong ... kate was best... n then she start saying how Emily has a sense of sophistication n then pointing out that kate can trapped you but not your heart ... n start making her feel like shit that you n kate did not have a single wedding pictures where emily pictures are all over the house.... which I think you are indifference toward that again why invitation your guests n

.... I don't know how to make this right ... shawn left me in my guilt.... I don't know how long I was lost in my thoughts when my cell vibrated...I saw

if your are not busy can you come home... Mrs Robbins is not feeling good I think .... she has been sleeping so long... I try to wake her but she is not responding im very scared ...

dropped my phone... no .. no god no... plz don't let anything happen to her... there was something wrong with kate n o didn't realised ...

eyes... come on kate ... please kate... Martha

already

n

for now I have given her some relaxing injection ... thank god the baby is fine... but it's kate im most worried... you have not come to any of her appointment I have

replied ' plz tell me

which is not good for her in this situation...n yesterday appointment she has a panic attack when she knows she

... fuck thats why she asked because her doctor want to talk to me... Im so ashamed that kate has to make excuses about me in front of

im very ashamed doctor ... I will try to take care of her alot...

very tired n sick... but she will wake up in few hours... this is kate diet n medicine chart which

you n let martha to see off the

person who has nothing did wrong.... kate was expecting that her husband will support her in front of everyone but what I did ... I again insulted her... degraded her...I kissed her forehead n pray to god that she woke up soon ... even the baby she wants more than

I put my hands in the bed I felt that I was touching some one hair... I opened my eyes it was Alex who lay his head in the bed... by my moment he woke n hold my face to check im

... oh thank

whats wrong... n how long I

replied ' its almost 4 :00 pm ... you slept for whole day ...I was so worried sick ... when doctor checked you I

ok... what about emma she is

said ' shh shh just relax kate ... just relax... you were not waking so I called her... she said the baby is ok... Emma asked you but I told her you r not feeling good so you are resting she

from his hand n asked ' Alex why are

but not that much that

well you left me alone multiple

.... n im sorry for that... but you need rest n something to eat .... then we will

left n called Martha to bring

said ' im so happy kate you r awake you have seriously put me in worry ..don't do this again... Mr Alex has been there whole