One Sided Love

Kate 

Rachel was with me and she was holding my daughter ... 

She said ' what a precious little thing she is.... she is the most beautiful baby girl I have seen ... oh look at her rosy cheeks..''

I looked lovingly to her n said ' Rachel thank you so much for being there for me... I will never forget that..'

Rachel ' kate don't you dare to say thank you .. im your friend n that's what friends do '

I very blessed to have Rachel as a friend ... my little girl started to cry .... its her feeding time... kate give her to me

I unbuttoned my front button n my hungry little princess attack on it..

Rachel laughed n said '' opps some body is very hungry... what you gonna name her'

The moment I know im having a girl... many name came into my mind but the name I want to give her my daughter was after emily 

I said ' Aria emily Robbins'

Rachel looked sympathetically to me n said ...' kate its a very beautiful name.... naming your daughter after Emily is very great step even after knowing she was your husband first wife'

I replied ' Emily was my friend my sister....so my daughter should be named after her... it was the name that came into my mind,all the time'

She looked ' you r very kind n beautiful person inside n out... Alex is lucky to have you'

By Alex name I flinched... he still doesn't see her... but what I was expecting he was already so loud n clear that he has nothing to do with Aria... I wish god changed his heart towards my daughter

Alex 

n every then now she cry n then relax .. then cry then relax... Kate was already so tired n she keeps looking at me that I will mind n get

they feel bad they were not with you and I called your father ... he dont have any idea that you called...I told him that Mona picked the phone... anyway He

softly replied

 ' Alex ....actually I don't

already feel like shit I wasn't with you when you needed me the most... (I picked her face ) its me who should say sorry not

... I realized the house look so cold like nothing happened in the last 24 hours... I remember when emma was borned whole house was covered with flowers balloons n welcome sign... I remember kate help me to do all the decorations ... everyone try to make Emily feel like a queen on that day.... n now im standing in house where their is no celebration sign n no one to hug kate ..... when I looked towards kate ... I saw her face with sad expression like she was also thinking the same... Im no good like everyone I let her down from the

 ' Alex im going to feed her ... then take a shower... I will make the lunch n dinner

kate you will just relax n rest ... I will take care of everything ... now go

she said ' I

... kate start cooing her n said she will go to

called the Mexican restaurant to order lunch ...

dressed in loose sundress n freshly bath ... she was in the kitchen taking orange juice from the fridge..... I went to her n hold her from behind... she flinched a little but then she relax knowing it's me... she said '

edible n fucking beautiful ... all I want to do

I think you forger I still have those pregnancy fat...

ravishing n you have not gain a lot of weight you looked

pregnancy how much I loved her n kissed her like this when she become the mother of my child n one of the images was me n her standing in the kitchen and making out when all the

confused but then her expression changed to sad one when she realized where I have gone.... because I have done this many time to her... she get out of my embrace and give

staff is

sleeping emma n behind were some staff who were holding a lot of gifts .... look like some one is happy for kate baby ... surprisingly kate father's has come with gifts to meet his granddaughter... I feel a little relieved for kate sake ... may be she may not feel

I greet him

took emma to Disneyland n she was so excited n happy there

' you came thats matter'..

 'Daddy you came... how are you... n Emma

put her in bed... when I

otherwise I might help you.... n secondly you weren't so clear why