You Saved Me Once Book 1

I wake up before Jeff, gasping for air. I had another nightmare.

It was of my mother.

It was her face, her voice, her tears, her cries, and her screams.

Now awake, I can still see her, when closing my eyes. It’s a cold, burning after-image, that won’t go away.

There was another dream though.

It was about Hayes.

This made me feel even worse, because I felt this before. I’m not supposed to feel this.

I look at the stain on my pants. I feel sticky, and dirty, again. I want to cry for dreaming about Hayes that way. I’m crying now.

But, I make sure to cry far away from Jeff.

I grab my bag from Rochelle’s room. I see both her and Hayes cuddled together on her bed, they were still sleeping. I watch for a while, until it makes me sad.

the air was cold,

go to the guest bathroom, and

steam clouds the bathroom. It

stuff them in my bag. I’m gross again,

a bad

shower, and stand around for a while, hugging my-self. I’m too afraid to close my eyes, too afraid to see the images of my mother. I’m too ashamed of what I’d dreamt of Hayes,

too sad to stand in the shower, I squat, when I

I’m crying now.

cry for a while, letting the water wash away the tears. When the shower’s over, I want

this from everyone, even Rochelle. I’m going to cre-ate another secret and lie,

get out of the shower, but the

myself in a towel and look for clothes. Each drawer I open

scrunching my hair. The pit in my stomach starts to

too quiet, the room was too green and dark, I was too much in my

go back into Rochelle’s

my lip and try to calm

walks into the

you okay?”